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Thursday, June 30, 2005

HA! A NEW TOY!! or rather.. a new thing that i found lurking quitely in my com... for those of u who don't know what i'm toking about... this is it: 我有心 er... toy? (don't really know the han yu pin ying for that..) if u still don't know what the hell is going on.. or what on earth im toking about.. i found this chinese programme thingy that lets u type in chinese.. haha call me slow but i really didnt know that such a thing actually existed in my com.. i don't even know what it's doing in my computer since no one in this hse actually types in chinese..

anyway, i found it.. so its mine.. all mine... haha... this chinese thing... really very fun to play wif.. i think i played wif it too much that my com is actually protesting 'no no no more chinese...' cause it keeps disconnecting and shutting down.. until i got so irritated that i actually hit it... can u believe it.. i hit the com.. and now.. im using it again.. sorry... please be a good computer and dont dc again... i promise i wont hit u again..i think im going mad.. im actually apologising to a computer.. hmm...

as for the chinese thing.. just haf to type some han yu pin ying stuff and a whole list of words appear out of nowhere... but there's just one problem... one major problem to me.. and that is there are soo many words to pick from and they all just look the same, sometimes i don't know what word goes where.... so just haf to go wif my gut feeling.. and my sixth sense.. which mulfunctions once in a while..

now with this new thing.. maybe my chinese won't be that bad afterall.. (notice the big maybe) and can practise on my chinese-choosing-words-skills.. as if.. ha =)

我是中国人,我会讲华语. 我有手, 我有口.
the above sentence is as translated: i am chinese, i can speak (or rather in this case.. type) chinese. i have hand, i have mouth.

and that short sentence which consists of probably less than 20 characters took me quite some time to put together.. and to look for the words that fit the sentence took me an even longer time.. so.. my chinese not that bad right? =)

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Wednesday, June 29, 2005

First it was tigger.. now, its piglet... the original cast of winnie the pooh all seem to be leaving.. leaving this world...

' John Fiedler, a stage and screen actor who won frame as the squeaky voice of the ever- worrying Piglet in Walt Disney's Winnie the Pooh films, died from cancer. He was 80. Fiedler died on Saturday in New York. a day after the death of Paul Wincell, 82, who created the lipsy voice of Tigger.'

just a pity that two of Walt Disney's greatest animators ( in my opinion) haf already left this world... kinda wierd that both the voices of Tigger and Piglet seem to leave at the same time... mere coincidence? of was it smthg else... to me.. it seemed like they had some kind of telepathy or smthg... u noe like the kind that some old couples haf.. when one dies, not long after, the partner goes as well... hmm.... life is so fragile man... or maybe they're just old... haha

i dunno.. but one thing i noe for sure... i dun wanna live and see all my loved ones leaving me.. i'd rather die first... rather than to suffer living without them... call me selfish... but thats how i wan it to be.. not like its up to me to decide... eee.... i shall stop toking about death.. if not this entry is seriously gonna be sad and dull...

' when u were born, u were crying and everyone around u was smiling... live ur life to the fullest... so that when u die, u will be smiling and everyone around u will be crying....'

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Monday, June 27, 2005

hmm.. had to wake up early today... which is not usual for a mon... cause instead of lessons starting at e normal 11 o'clock, imm started at 9 am... and not suprisingly, some woke up late.. some didnt even come... haha.. and the reason for all this? cause some big shot is coming for god knows what reason... er for e big shot.. im not gonna say who is it.. but hes big enough a shot for the school to haf bodyguards around...

anyway... when he came... everyone thought that he was gonna come in for lesson and look around.. thus the lesson being pushed forward... but guess what.. mr big shot didnt even look in.. but rather just walked past...i bet he didnt even know there was a class going on... hmmm....so yeah... we all woke up early for nothing... sigh...

anyway, had the variables test today... and i think theres a high possibility that im gonna fail.. at least i know im not gonna get a zero.. how would i know? stephen chong went through some off the ans.. and i got the first qns right... as for the rest.. i cant say...

did more on authoring.. and heres my take: so far... im hanging... now.. after today's lesson... im still hanging.. but not for long... in the weeks to come.. i'll probably get lost... and thats gonna be the end of me... so, as wad my primary school teacher used to say ' i will ask questions!' ' i will succeed!'

my mum had a fall and sprained her ankle yesterday.. so now shes like limping around... then just now, my grandma called and was toking to my mum on the phone when my mum told her about her ankle... and guess what? my grandma wanted to tok to me... so my suprised mother passed the phone to an even more suprised me...

' hello?'
' yun ar... hiyoh i think better go buy anleane milk lah...'
' huh? wad milk? for wad?' ( wad has milk got to do wif me?!)
' ur mother old already lah... bones so weak.. can fall down... go buy milk for her to drink lah...'
' oh... okie..'
' drink already than will be like me... strong!'
' right... okie... yeah... see if i got money first...' ( my mother in the bg laughing...)
end of conversation

now u know where my jellylegs came from.. and y im so accident prone...it all runs in the family... =)

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Sunday, June 26, 2005

this week has definately got to be the slackest weekend since school started.. seriously..the past weeks were just really tedious... bogged down by tonnes of assignments.. which seem to come all at the same time.. i swear it's a conspiracy among the teachers.. to kill us all wif homework...

tmr.. variables test for imm.. unless i heard wrong... haf i studied? er.. abit... if u consider sitting in front of pieces of paper... doodling... and den realising that im wasting my pen ink... trying to get the qns right by peeping at the ans most of the time... but if not.. den no... i haven studied.. haha... somehow.. there's a little voice inside of me thats telling me that im gonna fail... now.. come to think of it.. its probably right... so yeah.. okie okie.. ill study later... if i remember that is... but for now, slack i shall of wads left of this weekend.. b4 hell breaks lose and assignments start coming... again...

anyway, was reading spg's blog earlier today... er.. actually.. reading the first few entries and most of the comments... and this is wad i haf to say... after reading her blog.. seriously.. for those of u who don't know wad im toking about.. remember the girl who posted her nude photos on her blog? yeah.. i read her blog.. for those of u who still don't know wth im toking about.. u seriously gotta read up man.. get in touch wif reality.. haha.. back to wad i was saying.. i admire her for her courage and stuff... but other than that.. i think shes barking mad... seriously... shes a smart girl who doesnt give a fuck about wad pple think of her... she just does it to make a stand.. but this kinda stand.. is it really worth it? shes just giving herself unwanted attention... really...

god gave u a body.. treasure it...

okie.. enough about spg...haha... was doing research for my web design assignment.. and i found this pic that i really like... its my favourite dolphin...

no prizes for guessing wad my topic is on... so yeah.. they just seem so carefree and happy... wanna be like them... =)

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Friday, June 24, 2005

Psychosis... wad does it mean? im sure u all guessed it... its a kind of sickness... when someone starts seeing things other people dun see.. starts hearing stuff people dun hear.. starts laughing to themselves... these few days, after learning the meaning of that new word... practically everyone who walks past has something to do wif it... and now,the three of us: karen, siti and i are like having some psychosis fever or something... everyone or anyone who has one of the above symptoms has psychosis.. haha and now.. we're probably the ones having it.. according to karen, siti has retardation, i haf spasism, and according to siti and i.. karen has psychosis... haha.. i think its the lack of sleep that has us resorting to these kind of cheap thrills...
hmm...i read somewhere that for girls, blogs are probably just somewhere for them to complain about stuff and its probably true... for me... haha... today was not so bad a day until i found out stuff that i didn't wanna know.. until someone told me stuff that i didn't really wanna hear... until i realised that things were not as simple as they seem to be... after knowing all those stuff.. i admit that i felt a little cheated...felt a little pissed... well.... welcome to reality girl...the harsh reality... just gotta accept it all.. and learn to live with it.

i noe everyone has masks... different masks that different people get to see... but in front of me.. just try not to wear ur mask... i mean... dun go acting nice and smile, pretending everything's things fine when in fact, its not fine.. shallow pple, i can tolerate... shallow people who wear masks... disgusting... im just pissed that u guys just act that way and assume things when we didnt even agree to it... we didn't even say that we were in it and u guys just put us in without asking us... hello? a little respect here... e least u could do was ask and im sure we'd tell u... just dun go around assuming and put us in smthg we didnt agree on in the first place...

i guess its probably better if we, or rather i didn't know about this in e first place.. at least the impression i haf of u'll will be the remain as it was.. right now.. i'm not so sure.. probably just disappointed...

sigh... shoud not let this thing affect me..hmm... had cp lesson today... and we did this thing where u've got to write something about each other that u noe or rather wad u think of that person... for me... amongst my list.. i saw the word 'elegance'!!! can u believe that?!?! elegance? haha that person sooo does not know me man... elegance sooo should not be used on me man... me and elegance soo do not go together... wrong word bugger.... after using it on me.. it'll probably bring a whole new meaning to the word lah... haha

anyway, thats about all...

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Thursday, June 23, 2005

haha.. i actually scared someone!!! me leh.. the one who probably get's scared at stuff rather than scaring pple.. haha.. I ACTUALLY SCARED SOMEONE... er.. to be exact.. a kid.. okie.. fine..go on.. laugh.. laugh at how stupid this sounds... but yeah.. i actually did.. how? hmm...
i was walking home after sch today and in front of me was this little indian girl holding a huge.. and i mean HUGE cup of slurpee.. probably too big for her to finish all of it.. anyway, there i was walking behind her.. and for some funny reason, she thinks im following her or smthg... she probably thinks im following her, trying to steal her slurpee.. i dunno... wait.. i just had a thought.. maybe she thinks im stalking her... dunno wads going on in that little brain of hers.. anyway she starts to walk faster and glancing.. okie.. glancing's not the word to be used here.. more like turning around and looking at me with those ' y r u following me' eyes...

and after realising that she keeps turning back to look at me.. i realise that she's probably afraid of me.. so i try to walk faster to overtake her.. ( by normal standards i dun walk slow) BUT.. she starts to walk faster... i think if she could run she'd probably do it.. but she can't cause.. she has her slurpee.. haha.. looking at her face.. i think i probably distorted my facial muscles trying to control my laughter.. if not the little girl would think she's being stalked by this psycho girl who laughs to herself or smthg...

anyway, that was how it was until she went off in another direction.. but i swear.. i could feel her eyes following me.. probably breathing a sigh of relief.. haha wad can i say? i didnt do it intentionally.. if u wanna think that way... hmmm.... someday that poor girl's probably gonna think that the whole world is following her when she goes to orchard or smthg... oh well... it's just really fun to think that im actually capable of scaring someone... though that someone was really just a kid wif a very wild imagination...

oh.. check this out.. came across it while surfing for information on my web design...

The species of whale known as the black right whale has four kilos of brains and 1,000 kilos of testicles. If it thinks at all, we know what it is thinking about. Rape, even gang rape, is not unknown among other wild animals. But dolphins have perfected the practice. The team doing the herding is often shadowed at some distance by another. If outsiders try to steal the first team's victim, the back-up group will come to the rescue - not of the female, but of their male friends.

so wierd right? haha just some useless information that i thought was kinda funny...

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Monday, June 20, 2005

had a long long day today.. not like everyday is not long.. cant remember when was the last time i slept at a humane hour of er.. 12? now? its like always sleeping past 1. i remember the latest i ever slept was 5 doing the stupid storyboarding.. and the next day.. had the test.. and yeah.. u guessed it.. i woke up late.. haha.. e test started at 9.. at 9.10? i was still at home...

finally done wif the blasted lift... which just looks like any other lift design.. but do i care? no. cause i already spent like $4 on it.. anyway, im like working on e latest assignment.. dsnv: some stupid clips that we haf to analyse.. hmm... capture scenes? capture frames? i dunno.. den came the confusion between scenes and frames... ' is there any difference? between a scene and a frame?' 'wads the diff?' 'oh.. a scene is made up of frames...' new discovery? more like it was stored in some little cranny in my brain somewhere, getting dusty.

when is this dsnv thing due? end of this week... another week of looking like a panda... sigh... i seriously need to sleep man... probably cant do that in class anymore.. i case u didnt know, they knocked down e walls and put glass there instead... now.. it looks like a bloody fishtank... do i look like a fish to u? no privacy.. everyone who walks past, there is like a 99.9% they will look in.. hmm... probably looks like a viewing gallery or something lah... so no privacy...so attempting to sleeping in class will probably be e last thing on ur mind cause every little action will be witnessed by e thousands out there... hmmm.... oh and did i mention tt it stinks as well? cause of all the glue and silicon for e glass... hmm... don't u know that if there is too much pressure e glass will shatter? or u pple just dont give a hoot about our safety?

they also had e sdn wars screening for e freshies today... and i missed it... because i had lessons.. we were seriously considering skipping lesson to go for e screening lah... but in e end.. haha too bad.. just had to miss it...

anyway, 12 more days to the 2nd of july.. remember this date..haha... okie.. enuff for today... =)

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Saturday, June 18, 2005

lonely.. im so lonely... haha.. just came back from e airport from sending my dear sister off... shes going to beijing.. for like wad? 2 weeks?... so yeah... im sooo gonna miss her... in fact.. im already missing her... haha.. so silly...
anyway.. today we also celebrated my grandma's b'day.. went to oriental hotel to eat... and spend like wad.. er.. $80 per head of smthg... haha.. e food was like damn good lah.. and i mean GOOD.. there was actually a chocolate and vanilla fountain there lah.. and e food... hmm.... heavenly.. haha.. but after going there made me realise smthg... i am soo not cut out for fine dining.. i mean.. i made a fool of myself lah...

me being me went to e chocolate fountain e moment i found out about it and there was like a whole lot of foods tt u can dip in either chocolate or vanilla... so there i was wif my brother standing at e fountain dipping all sorts of foods like marshmallows and fruits... den after hearing tt strawberries go fantastically well wif chocolate.. i decided to try it out.. so there i was dipping my satay stick wif e strawberry into e fountain and suddenly... my strawberry drops out and gets lost in e fountain..

i dunno y i didnt just leave it there and go get another one lah.. instead.. i was fishing for my strawberry in e chocolate fountain... and volia.. i found it.. just as i was trying to bet it back... i flicked it up and instead of getting it out.. i flicked melted chocolate onto my brother's white shirt and my hand.. so we just stood there looking like a bunch of idiots laughing till i almost dropped my plate wif e other stuff dipped wif chocolate...hmmm... after embarrassing ourselves in front of practically everyone.. we decided tt leaving e strawberry there was probably a better idea...

after e chocolate strawberry fishing incident... there was e dessert incident.... by which there was this kinda drawer kinda thing where e desserts were put... and at e sides of e drawers were these funny tap looking kind thingys.. den i was like 'how come there r taps here?' den my brother gave me the omg look and he was like 'u r so ditz man... tts e light... idiot' oh.. okie... not my fault..i seriously didnt noe lah... who ask them to design e light until it looks like a tap.. and i mean.. it wasnt suspicious lah... u haf a chocolate fountain.. wad more a tap at e dessert section.. i seriously wont be suprised if it really was a tap which could like.. i dunno... squeeze chocolate or smthg...

anyway... just ate alot today lah... den had to rush home get stuff and off to e airport... so yeah... now.. its just me and my brother.. no more sister for e time being... sigh... i noe 2 weeks will pass very fast.. but now.. its just e starting... 1am... flying to pekking already... bon voyang babe! love ya... =)

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Friday, June 17, 2005

finally... DONE WIF DIRECTOR!! done wif e blasted thing which took away my precious sleep... unfortunately... more assignments to come.. next up.. guid... which requires us to do some wierd lift design... for some funny reason.. guid kinda reminds me of industrial design... b4 e lift, there was e remote controls... hmmm....

sigh... after not having proper sleep for e past week... i've finally fallen sick... and it doesnt help tt e damned assignment it due on tue... tue!?! dont we need some rest? assignment after assignment... which probably leads to me having absolutely no life at all...

oh and btw... to all e guys out there who reads this.. dun even try to get a girl's attention by doing e 'eh girl...' whee weet ' girl!! wait lah!!' or even ' xiao jie... zhuo peng you lah!!' method.. cause it sooo turns me off... and prob every other girl out there... GET A LIFE MAN!!! GROW UP!!! who wans these kinda frens anyway!?!?! and e worst part? when one does it.. the other guys laugh... is it tt funny? making someone u don't know pissed at u? i dunno... is it defined as cool in e guy world? i dont think so.. i'll prob just think tt empty vessles make e most noise and those immature brats just dunno when to hold their tongue... to me... it's just plain irritating... and it soooo turns me off... ( okie i just said tt...) but i really cant stand it...okie okie... im going too far...

i shall not let those immature brats spoil my day... haha... had e cp presentation just now... it went er.. pretty well i guess... den.. there was e bball thing going on... first was fang, kiat, karen and fadz... me and siti just sat there watching.. and when it started raining? we looked even more idiotic sitting there.. not taking shelter... haha after eating? bball wif e freshies... er.. fang, and er.. dun really noe who's playing against who.. but yeah... whole day.. bball... haha

but really... besides coughing my lungs out.. wif my throat hurting and head weighing a ton.. today wasnt so bad a day.. haha..

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Wednesday, June 15, 2005

finally... a new key.. or rather a replacement for e previous one tt i kinda er.. broke... as for details to how i broke a key.. brute force.. haha no lah... i kinda dropped e lock wif e key still inside... e result? a bent key... and so on seeing e bent key, e smart me tried to bend it back wif man's greatest invention: e plier... warning: NEVER TRY TO BEND A KEY... if u do... u will probably end up wif two parts of ur key instead of e usual one.. or maybe even multiple parts, depending on e amound of force implied..

web design today wasnt tt bad considering how bad e tables html thing went... actually, i guess its cause we played wif dreamweaver... which in my opinion was ALOT easier den notepad... somehow i haf a feeling im gonna take tt back.. but right now, im just gonna stick wif it i.e. dreamweaver is alot easier den notepad.. haha

anyway.. i haf a new source of entertainment... my sis borrowed this anime from her fren... it's called 'scrapped princess'... okie e plot goes smthg like this: king and queen haf a pair twins.. but abandoned e baby girl cause of e prophecy tt e girl is e lethal poison tt will destroy e world once she turns 16... i think she's called e providence breaker or smthg...

so anyway.. when she turned 15, pple who know about e prophecy tries to kill her so she runs wif her bro and sis... her sis knows magic and her bro is like this superb swordsman...(he's also damn cute.. haha) and they're like her 'guardians' protecting her from all those pple..e whole shows damn good but its kinda confusing... wif funny things like some dknight and e maul.. which is some kind of 'god' or smthg... dun really noe...haha

my sister cut her very long hair short today...and now.. she looks younger den me... im like so not used to it man...e reason? donate her hair to make wigs for e cancer kids in canada... i think she got influenced by her fren who shaved her head for e same cause.. very noble... but thank god my sis's still sane enough not to shave her head.. if not i think i'll get nightmares...haha so yeah.. those of u who wanna cut ur hair? donate it to make wigs... =)

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Tuesday, June 14, 2005

as i sit here in front of the com.. wif a tub of ice cream in my hand.. or frozen yoghurt.. or whatever its called.. i just noe tt its a new flavour... and trying to get e blasted html thing right.. im getting pissed by e minute... cause its sooo damn difficult to do... and e ice cream is melting.. cause i cant eat fast enough.. do i care? no.. just needed something to cool down.. if not i think i'll get so pissed at myself i'll hit e com or smthg...
suprisingly.. ice cream does work... really.... well at least it does for me.. its makes me happy.. haha... now.. wad could make me feel better? AMERICAN BROWNIE!!!!! billy bombers american brownie is sooo e best thing ever.. beats every other thing hands down man... but e price also not say very cheap lah.. so once in a while still can eat.. if eat everyday.. i think i'll die.. not as in sick of eating it.. but rather die from e goodness..haha induge in AMERICAN BROWNIE PPLE!!! it rocks!!

anyway.. now no american brownie.. at least still got yoghurt ice cream.. haha better den nothing... at least better den last week when i didnt haf ice cream.. now.. i haf TWO tubs sitting in my fridge.. waiting to be eaten.. haha indulge in ice cream this week i shall... and grow fat fat fat!!! and while eating.. im prob just gonna give up on e blasted html thing.. and just learn how to do it some other time... as for e assignment? pray hard i dun fail...

as for energy... i guess its almost over... yes.. they're splitting.. so yeah... sigh.. well wad can i say... tt's always e fate of boybands (although i dun wanna admit it...) one great band.. comes and goes... b4 noe it.. another one comes out... and will disappear within e next 5 years... sigh.. tts e music industry for u...

anyway.. just found out tt i finished e whole tub... shit... but at least t made me feel better... =)

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Monday, June 13, 2005

im like so sick and tired of doing director all e time... director is now like a part of my life... after sch.. go home do director... e last thing i see b4 going to sleep.. director... hmm... and its not a choice either...

today.. worst.. more director.. and den there comes along e guid assignment about some stupid lift and web design assignment... growl... everything is like coming out now... and its due like soon... so yeah... i can soo feel it man.. e stress is soo coming at me... its gonna hit me soon.. and den.. i dunno.. i guess im still at e 'can manage ' level.. so yeah...

anyway.. today.. sigh... made someone worry for me.. unintentionally... sorry... i really didnt mean it... now i feel bad.. for making u worry for nothing.. sigh... made u haf so many heartattacks.. and made u faint countless times... haha.. sorry la...

anyway.. this shall be a short entry cause im tired.. so yeah... nite pple..

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Saturday, June 11, 2005

bored from all e authoring and web design..i happened to stumble upon this superb site... hahah.. i dunno wads its called.. but it has like everything on e movie: madagascar!!! from e making of e movie.. to trailers... everything.. and y am i not suprised.. i was actually thinking of e amount of interactivity this site has!! i think im going mad...

watched e movie in malaysia... and it becaom one of my favourite movies... haha... damn hilarious... especially melman e giraffe ( i finally remembered his name).. and e small thing... i think its called mot... haha damn cute lah...two thumbs up for this movie man... =)

anyway.. found snapshots of e movie... parts tt i really liked tt is... haha like this one of them celebrating marty's b'day...and another one... of them going after marty aka in e train station... last but not least... this one of god noes wad thing but its damn cute...haha

well just some parts of e movie tt i really liked... oh if u e wanna watch e trailer here it is... =) enjoy...

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Thursday, June 09, 2005

after trying to get e damn web design thing done... i hereby certify tt all my braincells are officially dead... seriously... for e next few days.. pardon me for being in a coma and ignoring all tts happening around me...braincells need time to regenerate...

anyway... i prob spent more time travelling to sch den actually spending time in sch today... and it doesnt help tt only haf one pathatic lesson today... back to wad i was saying... lesson ended early cause e contractors had to tear up e floor... but y now? not tt im complaining or anything.. but e mac lab so new.. tear wad floor? and it doesnt help more tt i came in late today... all in all... prob attended about 45 mins of lesson... sigh...

oh one more thing... they should soo haf more trains.. or shorten e waiting time or wadever... i mean... waiting for like forever (okie okie.. im exaggerating) for a train which is like so freaking full.. and i mean FULL... pple at e doors practically haf their oily faces imprinted on e doors cause y? e pple just wun move into e middle... like y? is there some kind of disease tt attacks u once u step past e first pole in each carriage? or wad? u wun haf enough time to get out at ur stop and e doors will come closing in on u and squash u dead? i mean... PLS LOR.. E DAMN THING IS OPERATED BY A DRIVER!!

and it so doesnt help tt after squeezing my way to e middle of e train.. ( i seem to be e only person doing tt) where there is obviously more space for breathing... this guy comes and stand soo freaking near to me... i mean.. theres enough space for both to stand side by side.. but he chooses to stand soo fucking near to me.. his arm is like JUST ABOVE MY HEAD... wad can i say... i move over so tt i haf more space... and he moves as well..... growl... i think my eyeballs almost dropped out from e consistant rolling and glaring.. to make things worse.. there was this kid.. who was like knocking into me like once every wad? 5 seconds? okie lah... small kid... bad sense of balance.. understandable... but he keeps moving and knocking into me it becomes irritable... am i invisible? or am i just too soft tt he doesnt realise tt hes actually knocking into somone? i dunno...

after squirmy kid gets off... in comes an anutie wif a bloody big bag... with god knows wads inside... in my point of view.. bricks... knocking everyone out of her way.. and den LEANING on e pole... hello? leaning? when theres not even enough to grab on to? to add on... i was one of e many who fell victims to her killer bag... it hurt lah.. when she hit me in her attempt to get out b4 e train even reached e stop... more glaring... click tongue... roll eyes... prob did everything to show i was pissed without saying it... in e end? not a word of sorry... is it such a hard word to say? or pple just forget to say it?

so yeah... squashed between squirmy kid and wierd guy who, thank god didn't do anything if not i'll soo kick him and auntie wif the killer brick bag... wad could i do? just glared until my eyeballs actully hurt... wad can i say? just another train ride...

okie okie.. too much of complaining.. i shall stop here... just one more thing to say.. never hesitate to say sorry... it may seem like a hard word to say.. but this little word does miracles...

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Monday, June 06, 2005

im soo tired.. drained.. but.. happy... haha.. i finally got my break... went to malaysia just now.. just came back... tired... but refreshed... emotionally and mentally... haha.. watched star wars and madgascar.. cheap cheap man... two movies and its still cheaper den watching it in spore...

star wars... hmmm... okie lah... not much plot.. but er... yeah.. madgascar... its so damn funny man... so cute.. especially e giraffe... (kinda forgot his name)... light hearted movie.. wouldnt mind watching it again.. haha

anyway... b4 all tt... was sch... and... more web design... sigh... more compliating den b4.. more confusing den b4... more com lang... BUT.. i think i'll manage to pull it off.... really... bold statement coming from a com idiot.. haha but yeah.. im working on it...

anyways.. dfv not colsing down anymore... our batch is e last batch though... so freshies.. too bad... now.. im prob just worried about nette... relax girl! u're gonna be just fine... just dun let e present affect ur future.. so yeah... be strong... be brave.. i'll be wif u no matter wad... now im passing u some of my bo chapness... can u feel it? haha... just dun think so much okie?

oh another piece of gd news... e dateline for e damn director thingy has been... EXTENDED!!! YEAH MAN!! no need to rush anymore... i mean.. how am i supposed to get anything done if i dun even noe how to use e damn thing!?!?!at least now can try to understand this thing tt ill be using.. for like wad? e next two years? hmmm.... haha... YEAH!!! EXTENDED!!! HAHA ( okie.. im self high today...)

anyways... tts about all for today.. im tired... cheers =)

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hmmm.... thurs was a bad day... so yeah.. i think i haf more or less gotton over it... i mean.. cant stay depressed forever right?

im sch now... wif karen and fadz (with e tune: im so lonely... im so lonely... i haf nobody.. on my own... playing in e background..) freezing my ass off in e cp lab.. wif pple hammering down e wall beside me... somehow.. i haf a feeling im gonna die soon.. either of starvation, by freezing to death.. or.. i dunno.. hit by some scrap pieces of wall or wadever they're doing beside me... hmmm...

anyway.. recent news: DFV IS CLOSING DOWN!!! wad r they thinking man!?!? doing this now? at a time like this? i mean.. wanna do it den do it earlier lah.. b4 sch started or smthg... dun go giving pple hopes of them getting in this specialisation.. den dashing it by saying on e sec week of sch tt u're closing it down!?!?! wads up wif u pple man... evil things...

anyway... its like almost 7 and prob everyone has left for home.. for dinner... but we.. poor souls.. r still in sch... doing some director thing... its our first assignment.. and its due by e end of this week... so far.. nothing done yet.. am i gonna fail? most probably... but hopefully... they'll extend e dateline for all e other poor things like us.. who noe nuts about director...

anyway.. learned something new today.. another kind of com lang.. i think its called lingo or smthg.. wasnt really listening.. cause i was concentrating on using all my inner warmth and wads left of it to keep warm... so far.. hasnt worked.. and i cant really feel my finger tips now.. so yeah.. its tt cold.. especialy when u're in here for e whole day... wif e same teacher... wif e same class.. bbbooorrring... yawn... i think im like gonna get frosbite soon...

anyway.. i think e sun's coming out soon.. not yet.. but i can see it peeking out.. behind e dark clouds... hopefully.. after e sun.. there'll be a rainbow.. and it'll stay tt way forever... well.. im looking on e bright side.. so yeah... tts about all... haf to go thaw my fingers now... =)

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Thursday, June 02, 2005

sigh... wad else can i say... this week has prob been e worst week of my life... seriously...hmmm... y dun i tell u pple a story...

there was this boy, and he has a very unique hobby... he likes to collect saga seeds....( for those who dunno wad it is.. its e red seed tt falls from trees... duh!) so he'll go around... picking up saga seeds and he'll plant them in his garden... so his garden is like filled wif ALOT of saga trees...

until one day... when he was out picking saga seeds, he suddenly came across a different kind of seed... so out of curiosity, he planted e seed to see wad kind of tree it would grow to become... and soon b4 he knew it, e seed grew into a tree... so different from the rest of e trees in his garden, he decided to go on picking seeds... different kinds if seeds, different from e saga seeds he used to collect... after awhile, he had a wide variety of trees in his garden...

and these trees soon became a part of his life... sitting under their leaves reading, enjoying the soft sound their leaves make when e wind blows past... e garden was prob the place where he would hide when he was feeling down.. and e trees became more den a plant.. they became a fren... someone who would listen to his troubles... and comfort him wif their branches...

but e trees not only became a part of his life, they also became a part of a flock of birds' life... and e birds nested... and made the trees their home... however, the boy got irritated at e birds, disrupting e peace he once had, so in fustration, to get rid of e birds, he cut down trees. he cut down a part of his life, wif his bare hands in pure fustration...

obviously, the birds left... and all tt was left were stumps of e trees he onced loved and shared everyhing wif... sitting on e stumps of his trees, all he could do was to hope tt e stumps would grow... grow back into e trees tt were once a part of his life...

tts all i haf to say about this week...

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Wednesday, June 01, 2005

wad can i say... sch has just started this week... hmmm... boring week..

for one.. i dun think i will ever get to know all my classmates.. cause... all 40 of us r having e same lessons... at e same timeslot... unfortunately... having two classes together so does not work... cause i for one just ignored everyone on e first day of class and up till now... which is like e third day of sch.. i still dunno whos in my class... haha wad can i say.. im just antisocial... prob just blind to e world...

hmm... well lessons.. not tt ive started everyone of them.. but still... theres

authoring which is :-
~ a chimmer and boringer ( if theres a such a word...) version of probility in emaths...
~ a funny combination of simple eng and flow charts... smthg called er.. psuedocode.. or however its spelt...

den theres also interactive multimedia design (IMM for short):
~ another boring module.. for one.. the lec started to tok about history.. and all i could remember was tt er... e first mac com was built in 1980... dunno y i remembered tt also...
~ so boring tt i was like yawning at like 5 yawns every 10 minutes...

as for today... there was web design:
~ complicating...
~ confusing
~ toking in com lang which looks smthg like this: .. *!!@tkjhwat**%#

so yeah... above is a summary of wad ive been going through these few days... e living hell of boredom!!!

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