i've been wondering about alot of things recently. as in erm.. stupid stuff like why is the sky so high and blah blah blah. no im am not too free to be thinking about these stuff, its just out of curiosity i guess. i remembered one of the questions i asked myself was what is the sea blue and fire red? then it went on to question how come red stands for danger but (correct me if im wrong) the chinese find red an auspicious colour. like why?

i mean.. i know why red stands for danger but an auspicious colour? i seriously don't think knocking down a man when he was crossing the road with the red man is lucky for that matter. why not choose the colour green? okie, i realised im associating this with traffic lights but then again, the malays have green and yellow as an auspicious colour right, correct me again if im wrong. they have green packets during hari raya.

okie.. maybe not about the green packets cause if the whole world were to use green packets, it'll be such a sad case. a world of green.. hmm.. but that isnt the point. the point is why did the chinese choose red as an auspicious colour? and why is the sea blue? and why is the sky so high? and why...... you get my point.

i've just been wasting my time wondering about these stupid stuff which no one has the answers to, kinda like a stupid young kid that is curious about everything and asks questions non- stop until his mum gets so pissed off she tells him to shuddap and sit in the corner cause she herserlf doesnt know the answer to the questions. well, curiosity kills the cat so i might as well stop thinking about stuff that no one will know the answers to.
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Thursday, April 27, 2006

and so i can talk. my sore throat is getting better but my head still feels like its gonna burst. took two panadols after lunch and guess what? doesnt work. i was seriously considering taking another but i don't wanna die early from the overdose of panadol and get my stomach pumped or better yet, let some pple think im trying to commit suicide by taking one too many panadols.

then went to the fusion show and i guess it wasnt as impressive as last year's one. i dunno.. its just me. oh oh.. and how could i forget. we had to bring some sec sch pple around DMD and tell them about our course. val and i were seriously thinking of telling them not to come and that we were bluffed into coming here. cause once you enter, its not as great as you think it is. so anyway, they were from AMK sec, in two groups.

let me start with the first group:

girls dominate in this group with one poor guy. and they were not listening to a single thing we were saying whatsoever. val even heard one of them imitating her. shit her lah. here we are with our final year to work on and we still have to bring you rugrats around. and instead of listening, they were imitating her.. oh and did i mention that they were rather rude too? they called stephen choong uncle. i mean.. im not denying that choong's uncle but they don't even know him. oh and when we told them we were done with them, they were like: eh, can go already can go already.

go la go la. we don't want you here too.

then came the second group:


this time, there were more guys. and guys generally mean more stupid stuff. true enough. when we first met them and were introducing ourselves, the minute we said our names, the response we got was: I WANT YOU!
shuddap lah.. i don't want you. all we did was just turn aound, rolled eyes at each other and moved on. the guy who said that became the laughing stock but we didnt care. suprisingly, this group of guys were a teeny weeny bit better than the previous group. so yeah.

well, i have to give them credit cause in one hour, they managed to make my headache get from bad to worse. maybe i should just get another panadol.
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Wednesday, April 26, 2006

i have nothing to blog about. there is absolutely nothing interesting at this point in my life. besides the fact that i have been falling sick like half the time.

yesterday was probably the worst day ever. i skipped sch, again, cause i woke up with a major sore throat which went on to give me a sore neck which further spreaded to my lower back and by the time it was one in the afternoon, i had a fever and was aching everywhere and was in a totally foul mood. didnt eat anything cause just plain swolling made me cringe in pain from the stupid sore throat. it was as if i had a dead cat stuck in my throat or smthg and i seriously think my breathing was kinda affected cause it kinda blocked abit of my windpipe. whatever. so no appetite plus don't feel like eating resulted in my drinking cold water to help sooth the pain or numb the pain or whatever you wanna call it. and in case you start thinking im mad for not eating.. i ate okie.. i drank a can of soup. that's about it. for the whole day. ha. well, helps loosing weight i would say.

so today, i was feeling better so i went to sch to get my hard disk. i left it in sch on mon. ditz... and came home cause i was kinda done with my portfolio thing for the adobe competition so yeah. didnt really feel like eating much today as well, so i opened another can of campbell's soup. hopefully i'll be fine tmr cause that eric tan kinda insisted that we had to bring some sec sch kids around, talk about dmd and our course and stuff.. there's just one prob: how the hell am i supposed to tell them about our course when i have a sore throat in the first place?

well, im indulging in lozanges so i'll get better. hate being sick.
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Tuesday, April 18, 2006

everyone's like talking about their first day of school. 17th april. their first day of sch was a day at home for me. woke up with a stuffed nose so i predicted that i would have difficulty breathing in the freezing fyp studio so no sch for me. but as some spent their day at home today, mine was spent in sch. kinda like a vice versa thing i guess. doesn't help that the first week of sch is usually the slackest week of the sem. not for me though. i have an application to rush out and a competition to participate in.

fj's finally opened so we lunched there cause five weeks of south is boring enough. well, turns out 3/4 of the sch had the same thought cause fj was stuffed full of pple. i mean, okie.. not only lunch time. going to sch was like ging to war. the trains, the stations, the walkway, everywhere, there were pple. and we were just getting used to the empty labs and deserted walkways. right. its fun though, to look at the new faces and feel terribly old. anyway, were talking among ourselves when we kinda came up with a freshie identifing formula: kan cheong + blur looking + walking in groups of at least 10 pple + wierd dressing = FRESHIE! no mistake. or rather anyone u spot with any of the above synthoms = FRESHIE

so just as we were about to try a little experiment i.e. to pretend to be a freshie (cheap thrills that we have to succumb to due to the high stress level in the fypj room) we realised that we didnt have enough pple. oh and one more thing. the freshmen this year seem to have a very special/wierd habit; to hold hands while walking. i mean, its not just that one or two that are very close or smthg. its like.. the whole world is holding hands. THEY JUST GOT TO KNOW EACH OTHER FOR GOODNESS SAKE. i can only think of one reason why in the world they would do that: they love each other too much. either that or they are too afraid that they would get separated in the crowds and not get to class in time or smthg. OR they are just gay. i mean, even for a girl like me, its too much to take.

whatever. i shall just continue to be locked up in our little room, in our own worlds, spying on freshies for some comic relief... =]
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Monday, April 17, 2006

alright.. after this very very very short break and to have to go back to the realms of reality and work and stress and rushing out assignments and scripting, i've finally decided.

i've finally decided what i want to be when i grow up. my dream. notice i didnt call it my ambition cause it is totally unachievable. now im not talking about fantasy stuff like growing wings and flying to some place where there is no war and there is sunshine forever with flower fields everywhere and there is no hurt and whatever although it would be very desirable. but yeah its somewhat similar. laugh if u want but my dream would be...............














to go to new zealand or australia and own a farm near the sea with no more scripting! whaha. live a peaceful life with a penguin and a pet dog or smthg. i wouldnt mind a piglet if it doesnt grow up but no ducks cause they are absolutely noisy. right like a dog and a penguin and a pig would be any less quieter. okie im not done. my form of transport would be that of a horse and i definately have to have a piano which i can pound on to vent my fustrations. flowers growing in the backyard or maybe smthg a bit realistic... hmm... tomato and potatoes growing in the backyard then. and the house made of nice smelling wood combined with a cosy looking kitchen and hall. then i'll sleep in the attic and sleep under the stars. now doesnt that sound nice? well, its always good to dream and it was fun imagining.

back to reality and back to work.. sigh. guess my only wish now would be to stop sneezing cause my nose hurts from all that blowing. sch reopens tmr for all the rest but for me? its just another normal sch day. or maybe i should just extend my long weekend?
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Saturday, April 15, 2006

i think im allergic to fridays. i seem to be falling sick on fridays and then my weekends will be ruined. whatever. i had a long weekend so im not complaining. fri was good friday so no sch for me. but my mum dragged me and my sister out to look at furniture cause she kept going on about the courts sale at jurong east and that she needed to get a new washing machine and blah blah blah. so despite my feeble attempts that i didnt really feel like going (i mean, its jurong east for goodness sake! and it was raining. who in the right mind wants to go out when its pouring??) she managed to psycho my sister and i out of the comfort of our home and into the cold pouring rain.

so we got a new washing machine and a coffee table for dunno what reason. according to my mum, it looked nice and it was cheap. right. but after courts, she said there was another place having another furniture sale so we went to boon lay but unfortunately, got lost and instead of just giving up, we had to look for the stupid place which in the end didnt prove to be any better than courts. then we cabbed down to queensway cause i was rambling about how i have never been there and it was time to get shoes cause my last pair was ruined from kayaking and how everyone's saying that the stuff there are cheap cheap cheap so i finally got my way. hah

anyway, i finally got my shoes and i think i still wanna go back there cause it looked sooo happening. it doesnt help that it looks abit like far east but still, it looked fun. had dinner at ikea with the yummylicious meatballs and then we went home.

my siser rented the march of the penguins and its like the best documentary ever. i mean, after watching the show, i have a new found respect for the crew and the penguins. did u know that daddy emperor penguins starve for 4 months just to hatch the eggs while the mummy penguins go eat their fill?? like that never happens in humans.. if there is seriously such a guy who a woman can leave their baby to look after for 4 FREAKING MONTHS and not eat while they go have fun.. tell me cause i will go marry him. and although they are only partners for that whole period of a year, their dedication to their babies are amazing. there's also the cute factor taken care of cause the baby penguins are just sooo cute i want to have a pet penguin and probably kep him in the fridge or smthg. oh oh and then the crew also managed to film the northern lights!! can u believe that?? just seeing it on tv is like soooo cool imagine being there! omg! the forces of nature. hmm...

so yeah. bottom line is: I WANT A BABY PENGUIN AND HOPEFULLY HE NEVER GROWS UP AND CAN LIVE IN MY FRIDGE!

oh btw happy easter pple!
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Wednesday, April 12, 2006

okie.. so tina didnt come.. andrew came instead. and he brought terrible news. no. i seriously dont think terrible is enough a word to describe how im feeling at this very moment..

IT SUCKS!!

he told us or rather me that the next project tha t u have to work on is my digital portfolio or interactive portfolio or whatever its called. in other words, its smthg like my photo album. if you don't remember what doing my photo album was, let me enlighten you: IT SUCKS! ITS WAS HELL! WORSE THAN HELL IN FACT!!

and guess what? there's scripting. i hate scripting and scripting hates me. to the core. and now, im stick with scripting for not just one week or three weeks like studio project. IM STUCK WITH IT FOR A FREAKING TWO MONTHS... can u believe it! scripting for a WHOLE TWO MONTHS. omg! im gonna die. i mean, when he told me i was seriously about to break out in tears and scream. that's it. my life is over. i have to live with stuff that looks like:

onEnterFrame(some stupid shit) {
_this. i hate scripting (whatever that goes here)
_this.and scripting hates me(somemore shiat that goes here)

else if (i don't know what this function is for)
end if

}
};

if u understood the above script then u are a genius cause i myself didn't know what i just typed. if u didnt understand the above, good for u cause u are otherwise normal.

imagine the next two months of my life looking like this, revolving around this, staring at this from 9-6 everyday.

NO! I DON'T EVEN WANT TO IMAGINE!

im about to die. where's my american brownie?
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Tuesday, April 11, 2006

OMG!! WHERE IS TINA!!

im like rotting here cause there is absolutely nothing to do and my dudette partner is not here cause she's not feeling well and i still don't know what we have to do and im dying of bordem and i've finished my books so i have absolutely nothing to do and i have just said that and that is alot of ands.

and before i go, i shall one more feeble attempt to call for tina: MISS TINA! PAGING FOR TINA! WHERE IN THE WORLD ARE YOU CAUSE IM ROTTING HERE AND IF YOU DONT COME SOON IM LEAVING FOR HOME~

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alright motion is finally done and we just went to sch to hand it in yesterday so now, my team is having a well deserved break. of like one day. but well, better than nothing i guess. we were trying to psycho miss tina to give us a longer break of like, one week? one month? so we can all go on holiday but that just resulted in us being strangled by her. so this is it man. my holiday.

anyway, after handing it in yesterday, met up with nette and zena cause they were in tp. apparently cause they were feeling bored and wanted to go back to ij to look see look see but i wasnt really in the mood of going back although i miss ij tonnes, just the thought that everthing that has changed, the teachers all gone, all the familiar faces gone is just so... yeah so i went to the lib instead and got two books.

was clearing my mail when i got a mail from yl. it was about this two guys in the hospital and stuff and how one of them will look out of the window and tell the other what was outside, until one day he died and when the other guy requested to be moved to the window so that he could see what was outside, he realised that it was just a wall. and then the whole mail goes on to talk about how happiness can bring double the joy but i can't really remember what the rest was lah.. but that seriously got me thinking.

i mean, i must be such a horrible person. people around me get hurt and i can't seem to do anything. i make the people around me feel bad. im constantly complaining and my temper is like that of the tides, constantly changing. i mean... poor nette.. haha. i should seriously take some anger management course or smthg. cause those who are close to me have probably got a taste of my black face althought i don't scream and yell at whoever caused it. and im like always soo bo chap and stuff i seriously think sometimes nette gets pissed off at me and she must be thinking: how can this girl not give a damn and take things so lightly? how can she? HOW COULD SHE??? and here i am going mad, pulling my hair out worrying and panicking over the slightest stuff??

okie okie.. im kidding. see what i mean? im seriously evil.. okie. those who know nette and are reading this: she is not a worrier and she does not panic as much as she used to so yeah. although sometimes she drives me mad by being such a pessimist. ha and its not just nette i guess.

so yeah.. to all those who have to put up with me.. im really sorry that i ever showed u my black face and although i can't promise that u won't be getting anymore of this, all i can say is that i will try and control my temper until i get home and slit my wrists and rip my hair out in fustration. right. not only am i getting bitchier, im getting morbid as well.

cheers

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Saturday, April 08, 2006

im such a pig. i slept soo much (slept at 11 on fri, woke up at 12 the next day, went back to sleep at 4, woke up at 6) and now, im starting too feel sleepy. again. whatever. im hopeless when it comes to sleep. thank god our motion is more or less done and all that we have to do now is to put it all together and voila!

i thought sleeping more would put you in a better mood but when i went out to meet my mum at bugis, i felt sooo crabby i was like getting pissed at the slightest things.

SCENERIO 1:
was walking out from the mrt and heading to the escalator when this auntie behind me stepped on my slipper and this resulted in me tripping and almost falling if not for my bro grabbing me. instead of apologising, she had the cheek to exclaim loudly: HIYAH WHO ASK U NEVER WALK FASTER!

LIKE WTF... OMG!!!!!!! u should have seen her face! she wasnt even the least sorry SHE made ME trip and even ACCUSED me of not walking faster???? what is the world becoming to man! glared at her and cursed to my bro.

then went to meet my mum and we decided to head to crystal jade for dinner.

then came SCENERIO 2:

was deciding what to eat at crystal jade when this waitress came up to ask if we were ready to order. when my mum told her that we havent decided, instead of walking away to let us decide what to order, she stood there and was like telling us what to eat. i wouldnt mind if she was recommending what we should eat but then, she started telling us what we should eat. like hello! can't i even decide what i want to eat? that wasnt all. when she told my mum to order this fish set thing which the two of us could share (my bro already ordered), my mum told her that it was okie cause i wanted to have my own set. then she was like: er, then how about chicken?

omg.. which part of i wanted my own set did she not understand? like in what way did: i wanted my own set sound like: no i don't want fish, do you have something else????

gosh. and it didnt help that i had a major headache and she had an irritating voice. now im not being biased. my bro agreed. she just stood there and kinda insisted that we HAD to eat the fish set if not the stupid chicken set. so in the end, in order to shut her up, i agreed to share the set with my mum. and then came the ordering of drinks: what drinks do you want? barley? tea? coke? when my mum told her ice water was fine, she was like: plain water? are you sure you want plain water? not tea or coke? young pple like to drink soft drinks.

GOSH!! I SOO WANTED TO TELL HER TO GO AWAY AND JUST GIVE US WHAT WE WANTED. but my mum was like.. no, plain water is fine. we don't want anything else.

unlucky for us, or rather me, she was the one in-charge of our section so she had to do the serving. for those who have been in then waitressing business, you should know what i mean.
and so she brought us our water and she soo had to ask me: er, xiao jie, len suai ke yi ma?

at that point in time i seriously felt like throwing my slipper at her and screaming in her face: JUST GO AWAY AND LEAVE US ALONE GODDAMMIT!

i didnt even bother answering her qns. just looked away and nodded. sheesh...

that wasnt all for the nightmare, after the main course, she took the menu and asked if we wanted dessert. without hearing our replies, she started talking about what was good and blah blah blah. and when my mother told her NO WE DID NOT NEED DESSERT, she looked rather disappointed. im not kidding. thank god we left fast cause i think even my bro who has like the mildest temper got irritated.

so we're about to head home when i realised that my ezlink had negative value so i had to chuck in some cash. and guess what?

SCENERIO 3:
was queueing up at the ticketing office cause the machines were all jammed with pple when auntie with big bag just barged her way in front of me, in the process knocking me hard in the side. what? am i too short or too thin to be seen? or am i just invisible? omg. when one's day is going bad it really goes bad. whatever lah. i can't even be bothered to argue anymore. just let her cut my queue and secretly cursed her, all the time, staring daggers at her back.

maybe im just being short tempered. maybe im just crabby cause im sick and my head hurts. call it complaining, call me a bitch but i just had to let off some steam here. that was how my day went. and all that happened in the time frame of just three hours out of my home.
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Friday, April 07, 2006

is it possible to die from excessive sneezing?

i know it's impossible to sneeze with ur eyes opened cause if you sneeze with your eyes opened, your eyeballs will pop out.. then my friend just told me that if you hold in ur sneeze, someday ur lungs will burst. right. how comforting.

i for one have a sneezing fit right now and guess what? i hold my sneeze. so i guess it is possible to die from excessive sneezing. maybe tmr's headlines will be: " girl dies from sneezing too much. when found, her eye balls were three feet away from her and her lungs exploded, resulting in immediate death."
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Thursday, April 06, 2006

cold and hungry..

i feel like a begger..

sitting in a freezer...

doing smthg i dun like...
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Wednesday, April 05, 2006

i am seriously unproductive at home. motion is due on mon but tina has smthg on so either we deliver it personally so comgraph or she'll do it for us. the only side effect is that if we want her to deliver it for us, we'll have to get it done by fri.

its wed and we are still struggling to do our individual parts. are we dead or are we dead?

im dead. and im tired. that probably explains why im working slower than a tortise with a sprained ankle. oh and guess what? the next dateline for the other competition that we're supposed to be taking part is on the 28th of april. yup. 28th FREAKING APRIL!! like wth... its either we screw that competition up, or we do smthg really simple. like a poster or smthg. now that sounds better. just plain illusrations and no more after effects.

my mum is hugging or rather strangling my penguin and he can't breathe. he's probably gonna look distorted when i get him back.. hmm... whatever. have to go iron my brother's stupid uniform. i hope i burn myself so i dun have to do anymore motion.
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Monday, April 03, 2006

after almost stepping on one, i suddenly had a thought/question: how in the world are snails born?

i seriously cannot imagine little snails coming out from mummy snail's ass.. do snails lay eggs? but then again.. baby snails don't seem to have some sort of beak or smthg so how do they get out?? right.. i seem stupid but admit it..

I BET U PEOPLE ALSO DON'T KNOW HOW THOSE SLIMY BASTARDS ARE BORN OR HOW THEY REPRODUCE!

now that i mentioned it.. the question must be running through u're little brains, searching for the answer. if u knew the ans without reading on or checking it up.. don't tell me.

right. so after much reasoning and debating with my bro, i went to check it up. and low and behold..

SNAILS LAY EGGS!!! and they are hermaphroditic (having both male and female
reproductive organs). so in other words, no matter how gross it sounds, they can mate with themselves although it is preferred that they mate with another snail ( thank god). its like they have a gender problem their whole lives. sad cases... i can so imagine:

day1:
snail: ooo.. that one looks hot!! maybe i'll be male today.

day2:
same snail: now isn't that a hottie.. guess its female for me today...

gross

oh and guess what? Snails have an extensive mating ritual which involves circling around, and then riding up to each other.They touch each other with their foot, tentacles and genital organs.
This takes usually about an hour, the actual mating can easily last eight hours. haha.. so that's what's happening other than chewing on grass and moving at 0.1 m/hr. so happening!

don't the eggs look like mothballs?

suprising right? at least it suprised me. i seriously didnt know snails were so happening. i just thought they were sad creatures, once in a while, crossing paths with a foot and shoe and being squashed to death. or even better, munching on leaves their whole lives while awaiting their death, moving at speeds of like.. never. i think shit decomposes faster than they walk lah.. nono.. they don't walk.. crawl. yeah that's the word.

well, i learn smthg new everyday and now, i have a new found respect for snails. just because they have an identity crisis their whole lives and leave a trail of slimy shit where ever they go doesnt mean that they can be looked down on. but then again.. i don't see how useful they can be besides chewing up on ur favourite grass. snails rock!! =]
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