stillSTUCK

Tuesday, April 11, 2006

alright motion is finally done and we just went to sch to hand it in yesterday so now, my team is having a well deserved break. of like one day. but well, better than nothing i guess. we were trying to psycho miss tina to give us a longer break of like, one week? one month? so we can all go on holiday but that just resulted in us being strangled by her. so this is it man. my holiday.

anyway, after handing it in yesterday, met up with nette and zena cause they were in tp. apparently cause they were feeling bored and wanted to go back to ij to look see look see but i wasnt really in the mood of going back although i miss ij tonnes, just the thought that everthing that has changed, the teachers all gone, all the familiar faces gone is just so... yeah so i went to the lib instead and got two books.

was clearing my mail when i got a mail from yl. it was about this two guys in the hospital and stuff and how one of them will look out of the window and tell the other what was outside, until one day he died and when the other guy requested to be moved to the window so that he could see what was outside, he realised that it was just a wall. and then the whole mail goes on to talk about how happiness can bring double the joy but i can't really remember what the rest was lah.. but that seriously got me thinking.

i mean, i must be such a horrible person. people around me get hurt and i can't seem to do anything. i make the people around me feel bad. im constantly complaining and my temper is like that of the tides, constantly changing. i mean... poor nette.. haha. i should seriously take some anger management course or smthg. cause those who are close to me have probably got a taste of my black face althought i don't scream and yell at whoever caused it. and im like always soo bo chap and stuff i seriously think sometimes nette gets pissed off at me and she must be thinking: how can this girl not give a damn and take things so lightly? how can she? HOW COULD SHE??? and here i am going mad, pulling my hair out worrying and panicking over the slightest stuff??

okie okie.. im kidding. see what i mean? im seriously evil.. okie. those who know nette and are reading this: she is not a worrier and she does not panic as much as she used to so yeah. although sometimes she drives me mad by being such a pessimist. ha and its not just nette i guess.

so yeah.. to all those who have to put up with me.. im really sorry that i ever showed u my black face and although i can't promise that u won't be getting anymore of this, all i can say is that i will try and control my temper until i get home and slit my wrists and rip my hair out in fustration. right. not only am i getting bitchier, im getting morbid as well.

cheers

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