bored, boreded, borededed. okie, i made that word up. its like put, putted putteded. now come to think of it, how come there isnt any past tense for the word 'put' ? like why isnt there a past tense for the word 'bored' ? eh. wait. bored is already in the past tense. im bored lah. i probably did all the surfing the is possible already. im like trying to get some portfolio works done but so far, no luck. no inspiration, no nothing. so basially, im rotting. as for my online portfolio, can't be bothered anymore so yeah.

shit man, i wanna go home and not come back for the week. never come back until its time to go to work. rotting at home sounds better than rotting in sch. hmm. whatever. i wanna go shopping but im broke. i wanna eat good food but im still broke. i wanna go get a tan but im too lazy to travel to where the sun is. whatever. im just gonna take it easy and laugh at least 100 times everyday. well, if a baby can do 200 times a day, why can't i do a hundred a day? yeah right. im lying.

i took this out of a song:

Have confidence
Stronger than the strongest man,
And determination
More resiliant than any metal.

Aim a bullet from the heart
at the cowardice,
And you can pull the trigger.

just thought it sounded kinda inspirational. right. im gonna find something to do. something that doesnt require much brain power. oh did i mention that my auntie is hospitalised? on mothers day. like everything bad is happening now. the doctors said that maybe she needed to be operated on. but then they said she had a fever so they had to call off the operation. and now, they say she doesn't need to be operated on. like wth?? so does she need to be operated on or not?? what if she didnt have the fever? then won't she be operated on for nothing? shit them lah. if you're not sure whether or not to operate then just shut the hell up lah. hospitals are never good.

i remembered that there was once when i had a fever and i fainted in sch so i was brought in by my teacher. note: i was young. very young. and then when the doctors took my temperature, they said i had a freaking high fever and it had to be brought down. how? by throwing freaking ice water on me. serious. and there i was screaming and crying and my mum was screaming at them to stop and they would stop for a while then threw water on me again. they kept insisting that that was the best way blah blah blah. i seriously wouldn't be suprised if i got pneumonia or something. so yeah. hopsitals suck and being stuck in the hospital sucks even more.
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