After a going through a few tough lessons and meetings, I realized that growing up is not an easy task. I mean, I knew that it was never easy but I seriously did not know that it would be that tough. Thrown into the working world, forced to accept the harsh reality even when I least agree with the things that are going on, I still have to swallow it all, to tell a white lie when the time comes, to boost my team mates' morale when it is running low, to be optimistic even when I can hardly the light myself and to take into consideration a hundred and one things, to think about the outcome, to bear in mind the consequences to my actions and decisions. It is bloody tiring.

Sometimes, I ask myself if I really am ready for this challenge. I guess I should be thankful for being given the chance and the opportunity to prove to myself that I am more than what I think I am, to show others that I have what it takes, and to not to disappoint the people who have high hopes for me.

I guess when it comes to times like these, all you have to do is to not lose hope and to know that I have the potential and the caliber and to live up to their expectations. All it takes is a little self deception and to believe in myself that I am more than I think I am...

I feel old.

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