i never intended to get a blog until now...

cya later alligator

2010-02-25T18:55:00.000-08:00

Decided that blogger was being a boring old fart so I've MOVED!!! Stalk me there if you want..

americanbrownie.wordpress.com

Disney Princess gone wrong

2009-10-09T18:25:00.000-07:00

Was surfing around and just thought this to be very amusing.. This is what happens when Disney Princesses meet Marvel. They get all twisted.

Brings a whole new image to the sweet natured, daddy's little girl who breaks into a song for no rhyme or reason huh?

kiss my arse.

2009-10-05T11:56:00.000-07:00

Something happened today which made me even more sure that this is seriously not the place for me.. I just have something to say to that certain black individual:

If everyone says the same thing of you, and if everyone carries the same feelings towards you as a person, then guess what? THE PROBLEM LIES WITH YOU. YOU HAVE A PROBLEM. A MAJOR PROBLEM THAT EVERYONE CANNOT STAND WHICH RESULTS IN THEM LEAVING. GUESS WHAT? I'M GLAD MY BABY WAS SMART ENOUGH. AND YOU KNOW WHAT? THE DAY YOU FALL WILL BE THE DAY EVERYONE LAUGHS THE HARDEST.

FUCKtard.

Present!

2009-09-29T16:00:00.000-07:00

Christmas came in early!!! Look what came in!

This is probably the first time and the last time the company ever buys us designers something good.

A MAC PRO!

According to my colleague, this is the world's best com ever. 'God-like' to be more exact. Even that got me, the Apple idiot, all excited as I pulled the machine out of its box and unwrapped the contents. I have to admit, I was kind of expecting to find an Autobots logo somewhere on this thing.

What surprised me even more was that this was actually DHL-ed over all the way from the US. I mean, don't they have Mac Pros in Singapore?? My colleague also got a spanking new iMac so now, all the designers officially work using macs.

What's gotten into my boss? I'll never know.

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2009-08-03T16:30:00.000-07:00

I finally understand how 2-faced some people can really be. Trust me to be so naive, least to carry some hope that this place is not all that bad, to at lease see and feel a little appreciated, but only to have my little bubble of hope burst by the harsh reality. I'm searching..

Searching for another reason to carry on struggling, cause right now, all I can see is me drowning..

Fuck. The last straw is coming. Very soon I tell you.

2009-07-02T17:38:00.000-07:00

Went for the DaVinci Exhibition at the Science Centre and I have got to admit that it has been AGES since I last stepped foot there... The exhibition was pretty interesting cause they actually analyzed the Mona Lisa and what went wrong and blah plus did you know that Da Vinci was not only an artist, he was also an inventor who was pretty much interested in physics and bolts and gears and all those physics stuff? So yeah.. Pretty neat stuff.

Science Centre on the other hand was a wayyy different experience. Most of the stuff hasn't changed, but they added new sections and what do you know? They teach you how babies are made there!!!

Cool right? So next time you don't wanna answer the question that all parents apprently dread, bring your kids there and force them to read all about it...

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I haven't got all the photos from Phuket yet cause our camera died on the first day so the rest of the photos are with cousins. But before it died, these are the few pretty pictures from Phuket. (For those who didn't know, I went to Phuket.. Heh)

Simply love this pic.

It's really refreshing to go for a short break once in a while if not I think I'd be seriously depressed. =]

The Moon Walk lives on.

2009-06-26T10:10:00.000-07:00

After growing up listening to classic songs like 'Childhood', and 'Black or White', it really is quite sad to know that the King of Pop has passed away after suffering a heart attack. And to think he was practicing hard for his upcoming world tour...

I guess no one really expected him to leave so suddenly so when news his death reached my ears, I was kind of shocked.. It's only when someone dies then do they become a Legend.

Pet Lizard

2009-06-10T21:08:00.000-07:00

"That's right! Mushy rubbery fuckers with protuberant eyes and tails that fall off and innards that are visible underneath translucent skin - are loved, fed, and have a price tag on them!"

Omg! I absolutely love how she describes lizards and how sick people actually keep them as pets in the States.

2009-06-01T12:20:00.000-07:00

OMG!!!!

*Screams and pulls at hair in horror*

MY TP'S TMR!!!

2009-05-08T09:50:00.000-07:00

I WANT A MINI PIG!

I'm quite serious about getting a teacup pig as a pet. You have to admit that it IS cute.. Right?

When I told my brother about my plans, he said it could be food for his pet snake. He intends to get a whip snake, which I'm not very keen on.

Zzzzz

Touch you heart and speak the truth. Which would make a better pet?

In my opinion, the piglet wins hands down..

women drivers

2009-04-24T09:30:00.000-07:00

I've been taking driving lessons for some time now, and it suddenly dawned on me that driving is not really my cup of tea. I don't know how I'm doing, whether I'm a relatively okay driver or am I one of those many women drivers who gets dissed at for making the slightest mistake / driving too slowly / I don't know what else reason followed by the famous: "Women drivers *plah*"

I just realised after today's lesson that I don't enjoy driving, not to the extent that I get pumped up or excited whenever I hit the roads. I just do it cause I have to do it.

PS: Please keep in mind that this was the person who vowed never to learn how to drive to prevent knocking someone down.

CATS!

2009-04-16T09:30:00.000-07:00

Pork rocks!! Loves~

I'm not very into updating these few days.. God knows why.

dear god

2009-03-10T08:18:00.000-07:00

Dear Lord,

Please grant me the strength to hang on until it is all over...

*Once again, Jiawan is bogged down with last minute changes and a million other things to do. Life at VS... zzz

Movie Marathon

2009-03-03T01:31:00.000-08:00

The Pink Panther 2. He's just not that into you. The curious case of Benjamin Button. Slumdog Millionaire. Role Models. Marley & Me. Those were the movies that yours truly caught in the time spent of 5 days.

Last week was the first time I've watched that many movies in a week. Pork and I went on a movie watching marathon, cause there were just too many good movies that we wanted to catch.. Coming up with that brilliant idea and then subsequently sending me an email of the timetable of movies, we then embarked on our movie watching bonanza. Boy were we nuts.. Haha

I felt like I was some reporter sent on a mission to watch a billion movies, only spared of doing horrible movie critiques... Well, that's the fun of it I suppose.

Till then~

2009-02-11T16:06:00.000-08:00

Went to catch Bride Wars with Pork and it was a pretty decent show.. Okie, fine, it was pretty good. Your typical girly girl kind of show which got me tearing at the end. Pork thought I was being stupid and called me a cry-baby..

Duhz..

Anyway, that aside, I don't even know why I'm blogging. Just felt the sudden urge to type something so yeah. Something to look forward to:

I'm going to the zoo zoo zoo,
how about you, you you~~
(more like the night safari, haven't been there in ages...)

On a totally random note, Marley & Me is a damn good book.

Its the year of the cow!

2009-01-28T23:13:00.001-08:00

It's the third day of the new year and already, I'm back at work. I'm just feeling a little bummed out over the fact that other companies have the whole week off but we're back at work on the third day...

Anyway, I'm not gonna wallow in self depression cause after all, it is the new year! Went to Serangoon Gardens Country Club to watch a Lion Dance Performance and besides that, the new year is pretty much the same as last year's except that this year had me getting a lot more ang baos!

Weeeeeeeeeee~

Don't you just love it to open your bag to see it containing loads of red, knowing that in each little pouch, there's just a stash of money just for you??

This year's gonna be a good year. I can feel it in my bones....

2009-01-21T15:23:00.000-08:00

Just thought this quote to be very true..

"Love is the magic between two people that cannot be explained and cannot be conjured."

Humdrum. That's the word to describe my life right now with work and whatnot, nothing exceptional therefore nothing to blog about. I seem to lead a very monotonous life, not that I would expect everyday to be an Indiana Jones Adventure. Think I'll die early if every other day I had to spent my time running from red indians and chasing snakes.

I don't even know how I feel about work anymore. I seem to be in a daze. Maybe it's just me but I'm starting to feel that my works don't really convey a message anymore. I have to start on something else. It's been ages since I last felt excited about executing a design anymore.

Duhzzzz...

It helps that chinese new year is coming, and that the cash starts flowing in as well. No, hopefully this year it doesn't flow in but floods in!

goodbye 2008. you have been great!

2009-01-01T12:31:00.000-08:00

As I sit in front of a blank screen, trying to fill in my thoughts for the past year, I don't know where to start. Too much has happened, too much has changed, too much to be simply put into words.

Thanks to all those who have grown with me in one way or another.
Thanks to all those who have made my life hell, I have grown stronger mentally and emotionally.

and lastly,

Thanks to all those who love me for who I am.

Hopefully 2009 will be another fruitful year, one that makes me grow in ways I never will be able to imagine.

Merry Christmas

2008-12-16T11:00:00.000-08:00

Jetting off to the beautiful Lankawi, but before that..

you are sooo going to heaven

2008-12-05T12:00:00.000-08:00

OH MY FREAKING GOD!!!!

I AM SOOOOOOOO PROUD OF MY SISTER!

She freaking saved someone can!!

Loves~

happy birthday to me~

2008-12-02T12:01:00.000-08:00

And so I have joined the millions out there who have already been through this stage in life, I now can officially get married without parent's consent, watch RA movies and get thrown into jail for drunk driving. Girls home is no more valid.

I'M FINALLY 21!!!!!!
I feel old.

With my lovely designers planning and ordering the yummlicious cake (apparently they had to beg the auntie to bake it cause that flavour was only available on weekends! touch-ed sia~), hunting for 21 presents all chucked into a big box, and a nicely sewn I-dunno-what-to-call-it, it was seriously quite surprising. Considering how I didn't intend to celebrate it at all. It seems like the older I get, the less excited I am over birthdays, I dunno, they just don't excite me that much anymore... But this is one birthday I'll remember for quite some time. A small gathering with those I hold dear to my heart, birthday wishes from friends whom I hardly meet up with but nonetheless never fail to remember my special day..

Thanks for remembering, and for making my day a little more special..

With Love
jw

made with love~

2008-10-31T12:29:00.000-07:00

loves!~

What do I really want?

2008-10-30T18:58:00.000-07:00

I enjoy breathing shallow, cause then I know I'm still alive...

Slipping into comfort zone is never a good thing.

i screwed up. again

2008-10-06T11:39:00.000-07:00

It sucks when things don't go your way.

It sucks when things don't go your way even when you have tried all means to prevent them from happening.

It sucks big time to be mad at yourself.

It sucks so bad I'm starting to have second thoughts..

procrastinator

2008-09-27T20:17:00.000-07:00

I finally got down to exercising.

Bladding at East Coast on a Saturday with my crazy designers.

It was fun.

designers' outing

2008-09-22T11:33:00.000-07:00

I always knew that the designers at VS were different.. This just proves my point...

A picnic! All planned and executed in 2 days...

We all damn on can! Even took a day off, to go to the beach for our picnic. Consider it as the designers on strike! Not...

This was done all done on the roof top of Techview, our very boring work place.. Yes, my office is on the rooftop so if we're ever to stressed, jumping down from the roof top is always an option.. haha

The wonders of Photoshop

And there you have it. The wonderful girls who always make me laugh out loud.. Hearts~

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2008-09-18T13:11:00.000-07:00

I CAN DO IT!

I CAN DO IT!

I CAN DO IT!

I CAN DO IT!

I CAN DO IT!

Can I really do it?

I'm getting sick and tired of blunders happening at work...

I've got mold growing...

2008-09-05T15:24:00.000-07:00

"OMG! MY PA-PI-LON 长 SEH KOR LEH!!! Then 我不敢穿!"

It's Papillion dear.. Haha...

My colleagues are hilarious! That is just one of countless incidents which made us laugh so hard our stomachs ached... And while we were laughing our heads off, she went on saying how she didn't know how mold could grow on her Papillion slippers and that she didn't dare to wear them cause she was afraid mold would grow on her feet..

Damn Bim can!! But we all love her loads!

Side track... I'm damn proud of myself can!! *gushes over self* I challenged myself and managed to model a boat for a client who wanted a yatch theme for their upcoming exhibition.

front view

back view

So yeah, I'm happy.. =]

s.i.c.k

2008-08-17T21:23:00.000-07:00

It seriously sucks being sick... Not a good feeling when your head feels as if it's been hit by a sledge hammer, there's a constant ache in your bones and you can't breathe properly cause your nose's clogged up..

Fever fever go away so that little jw can go out to play..

indulgence

2008-08-15T12:10:00.000-07:00

Guilty. Guilty for indulging in the yummiest of foods, guilty of eating useless crap which makes you put on the pounds.. That's what I've been doing these few days, and boy am I not regretting it. Yet.

Cravings have also included Alegro's (who so happens to be one of our clients) churros and tortilla. My designers and I totally heart the churros, and I quote:

"Churros are dangerous foods. It gets you addicted.."

How very true.. So if anyone of you gets tempted and wanna try out the aboved mentioned, alegro's situated at Central, just opposite Fashion Bar. I demand that you go try the churros and get just as hooked on it as we are, if not, you won't know what you're missing out on!

Tortillas. Yummilicious

Churros!! Heart~

And on a totally random note, I miss my dolls...

dedicated to you, auntie esther...

2008-08-04T11:42:00.000-07:00

It's been ages since I last blogged huh? Loads happened, both the good and the bad...

Tonnes of pictures taken to remember the good times and to keep them as precious memories, but some stuff will always become a memory now since it's impossible to bring the dead back...

I don't know if it's just me but I can still hear her laughter, her silly actions that make her ever so funny. These have been going through my mind these few days... It's seriously scary how these things seem to be getting closer and closer to home. At first, there were grandparents of friends, my mum's colleagues' parents, and now, it's someone whose name we've all grown up listening to, so used to hearing stories about their friendship. I guess I can never really understand the pain my mum's going through, losing her friend. I seriously cannot imagine my life without Lynette... Humans tend to take things for granted, only to cherish and treasure things that you hold dear to you when they are gonna be taken away from you huh?

Saying goodbye is never easy.. It's been a long weekend

there's a little old woman...

2008-07-04T02:17:00.000-07:00

After a going through a few tough lessons and meetings, I realized that growing up is not an easy task. I mean, I knew that it was never easy but I seriously did not know that it would be that tough. Thrown into the working world, forced to accept the harsh reality even when I least agree with the things that are going on, I still have to swallow it all, to tell a white lie when the time comes, to boost my team mates' morale when it is running low, to be optimistic even when I can hardly the light myself and to take into consideration a hundred and one things, to think about the outcome, to bear in mind the consequences to my actions and decisions. It is bloody tiring.

Sometimes, I ask myself if I really am ready for this challenge. I guess I should be thankful for being given the chance and the opportunity to prove to myself that I am more than what I think I am, to show others that I have what it takes, and to not to disappoint the people who have high hopes for me.

I guess when it comes to times like these, all you have to do is to not lose hope and to know that I have the potential and the caliber and to live up to their expectations. All it takes is a little self deception and to believe in myself that I am more than I think I am...

I feel old.

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2008-06-24T13:35:00.000-07:00

Came across this while reading my colleague's blog, and I thought it was pretty damn true...

The four things that I find are most important in my life at this present moment:

Faith; for it makes us believe.

Hope; for it keeps us going no matter what.

Strength; only a strong person can experience joy, and in turn, bring joy to others.

Love; for Love never ends.

Work has been pretty enriching, I learned and gained some and I lost some.. It's a give and take situation I suppose. On a lighter note, I have like tonnes of pictures from HK so when the time comes, and I'm feeling extremely free and have nothing to do, (lying on my bed all day doing nothing but staring at the ceiling does not count), and manage to find some immense energy from within to sit in front of the computer and to log on to my account only then will I post them up. I'm procrastinating. Again..

Anyway, I'm gonna end off with a quote that I really like:

" I enjoy breathing shallow because then, you know you're alive. When you're too comfortable, you do not know if you're alive or dreaming.."

Till then peeps~

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2008-06-04T20:30:00.000-07:00

Drama, drama, drama!!

This was what happened last Sun. Went out with my family to watch Narnia, Prince Caspian, which was pretty cool so go catch it. Anyway, that's besides the point. Was just about done with lunch when my mum got a call from my dad saying he was on the way to TTSH cause he broke his finger.

HE FREAKING BROKE HIS FINGER!!

Like what? All of the sudden? Doing what??!!?

So all worried and confused we cabbed down and guess what? My old man broke his finger while moving the old cpu. I'm also not too sure how it all happened but we went home to a murder scene. Apparently, he not only broke his finger, there was a deep cut as well, so blood was all over the floor and there was an apparent trail of blood leading all over the house.. It was pretty scary and sometimes I seriously don't know what on earth is he thinking but what can I say... Dots.

Besides that, yours truly has a BIIIIGGGG project on hand. For once, I'll not only be designing the visuals for the EURO 2008 Live screening at the airport, I'll also be managing the project, from the arranging of man power, to the sequencing of how the setup will run, to the blah and the blah... AHHH!!

If you look at it at another angle, it's pretty cool I guess. Will be leaving for HK at the end of the week and I'm gonna miss my bro's POP. Till then~

work sucks but i love it...

2008-05-21T15:08:00.000-07:00

I don't know if it's just me but I seriously can't help but get irritated when there are so many last minute projects that are not exactly small scale and they are not exactly the easiest things to do. Not when you are lack of sleep and you lack inspiration and it doesn't help when they breathe down your neck blah blah blah.. OH MY GOD!

I know my attitude should change cause these are the projects that keep us going and supports us and all but I can't help it!! It's like every time I get irritated at the guys I feel bad later on cause there's nothing they can do too and I'm pretty sure that if they had the choice they would seriously give us more time too.. Well, that is the harsh reality. Money makes the world go round.

ROAR

That is probably the only reason why I'm super looking forward to the Hong Kong trip. To get away from it all, to run away for a period of time and to get my long long long awaited break.

*frustrated*

I'm gonna give a reason/explanation to my being so easily irritated.. My period's coming.

I miss the times when we both worked and struggled really hard together. I miss the times when we gave each other support and motivated each other, only to come out victorious. I miss your company.... I miss Cat.

a pleasant suprise

2008-05-17T14:33:00.000-07:00

I was just going through my picture collection while backing up my computer when I found some really random photos..

My two bosses just came back from some exhibition seminar in Hong Kong and they got me this. Apparently, accordingly to them, these were the most delicious looking ones.. They look bloody real I tell you!

And to give you an idea as to how small they were:

In comparison to my huge keyboard...

Digressing..

Suprise suprise!

so yeah.. I have to go take pictures for my company's van and once again, I'm back at work on a Saturday. Till then~

paintball cum kukup

2008-04-30T21:38:00.000-07:00

Updates, updates, updates!!!

I know, I know I haven't been blogging for ages until a certain marshmallow's complaining.. So anyway, I had a rather happening weekend last week. Went to Malaysia for yet another paintball session but this time, instead of the usual one day thing, we actually had a whole itinerary planned out. All planned out by my fat boss's brother, he subsequently sent us all an email:

Hi all,

Get ready for Pia Zui / Huo Bing on 26 April 2008(Sat) at Johor Bahru. After the Pia Zui/Hou Bing, I will arrange the accommodation at Kukup to avoid FBI. There is foods and beers provided. But you had to pay for the accommodation Ah Gong very poor. RM80 include foods but not fire crackers and beers. For the arrangement for Pia Zui and weapons, Jeffrey Ang (Headman) will in charge. This also need money. To be advise.

Journey: 26 April 08
0800hrs - Meet at Woodlands.
1000hrs - Reach Pia Zui location.
1300hrs - Reach Kukup lunch
1430hrs - Check - in / R n R

27 April 08
0800hrs - Breakfast
1200hrs - Lunch
1330hrs - Home Sweet Home

Thanks and regards
Dickson Ng (Gin Na)

And so after some tedious planning and arrangements, we finally went ahead to Malaysia on the 26th of April with 5 cars, 23 adults and 2 kids. Yup. A platoon of 23 trooped to Malaysia, and obviously, it was great fun. We didn't go to the usual paintball place that we usually go to. This was a whole new terrain and it was way more... jungle-ly.

I'll let the pictures do the talking...

The whole area is damn big lah! Don't even have to play.. Just try running around the whole area and you'll know how tiring it is. Then try running and hiding for dear life while carrying a guy loaded full of paint pallets, then you'd know how freaking tiring it is.. I was aching like hell after playing lah! Oh and this time, we were ALL dressed in no.4 uniforms that even the people working there were so surprised at seeing this whole bunch of people (namely guys and girls) all dressed alike that they even asked to take a picture lor! Damn funny..

That's what it looks like when you get hit. Paint all over..

Then it was over to Kukup for lunch and our rotting time so yeah. Dinner was seafood, seafood and more seafood. Really will eat till burst that kind. And it doesn't help that all they do is to eat, drink and eat somemore, drink then sing karaoke. I swear these people never seem to get tired.

The pretty sunset

It was also pretty cool that we got to play with fireworks lah.. Pretty pretty~

It wasn't really that bad an idea and it was good fun. And CHEAP too! That's what makes it all the better. Haha. =]

Alright, enough of updates, enough of pictures, time for my very overdue dinner. Till then, love love~

Thy sons are we!

2008-04-09T23:44:00.000-07:00

It's finally my brother's turn to do his part and serve the nation, and so I took leave to send him off on his final journey as a civilian before becoming one of, and I quote MINDEF: 'Singapore's Sons'. TODAY IS HIS ENLISTMENT DAY!!!

Backdrops and what not to psycho people into signing on.. retards

Frankly, I was seriously quite excited cause I can finally put an image to what that famous Tekong Resort looks like. And you know what, from far it does look a bit like a harmless spit of island where slackers go to to, well slack. I felt like some stupid tourist with a spastic second finger which doesn't stop pressing the shutter button lah. Ahem. Anyway, photos!!

You tell me? Nice not?

But then as the ferry goes nearer, you see that big ass national flag flying on top and you snap out of your nice day-dreaming to remember that your mode of transport is so cheesy-ly called 'Penguin Tekong'

Talk about originality..

The minute we get off the ferry, enlistees and family members were separated and we were given a tour of Tekong. Well, not the whole of Tekong la, but rather a tour of BMTC and stuff, and all this time, my mum was like: 'Wow, Tekong is so nice now, last time where got like that one?' Say until like she went through NS at Tekong last time... Dots.

He's in Leopard Company, which according to him is heng cause one more and he'll be in Mohawk, which is not good cause apparently Mohawk and Ninja are the two most xiong companies or whatever lah..

Every company has like a board where all the high ranking officers and what not are shown lah.. Easier to recognize also lah.

I took a picture of his platoon officer cause I thought he looked like that actor Lim Yu Beng. Well, if he treats them like shit, at least I still can blacklist him or voodoo him or something.. Haha
Oh then after the tour we were brought to the auditorium to witness the oath taking ceremony and when we went in, the boys were already seated right in the middle, so naturally, on seeing their sons once again, mums and dads will then proceed to exclaim rather loudly: 'There! He's over there! Sitting:
option 1: Next to the boy in the red shirt.
option 2: Fourth row fifth boy from the right.
option 3: Call out the poor embarrassed boy's name all the while waving frantically.

but on seeing no reaction from their sons (who at this time are all sitting in an extremely stiff position looking solemn) exclaim: 'Hiyah, he never/cannot see us!'

And you know what the best part is? One of the the army guys actually told a parent who was reenacting the above mentioned, and once again, I quote: 'Please refrain from calling out to your son cause they were briefed previously to not respond to their parents and to act solemn.'

HAHAHAHAHA

ACT SOLEMN!?!?! HAHAHA Classic.

After that came lunch. Finally.

I dunno if the food's always like that but it seriously didn't taste all that bad. After lunch was time to say goodbye. No more nice long showers, nice comfy bed to sleep and waking up at insane hours of 0530. Well, 2 weeks and I'll be seeing you man..

assembling at the parade square before seeing these boys with hair in two weeks time

Green IC!!

Last photo with hair. Be a man! Do the right thing brother!!! Have fun and play nice with other kids dude =]

Okie, that was a super long post with alot of photos. Something that I haven't done in a long time..

2008-04-04T16:18:00.000-07:00

There have been some major changes in my life recently. Cat has left us and not only did I lose a great working partner and colleague, I lost a confidante, a good friend and we went through some of the toughest times together only to come out victorious but she finally decided that advertising was more of her kind of thing so yeah. I'll definitely miss her but I wish her all the best! Love love~

I've also thought some things through and I definitely feel better so yeah.

Went back to Malaysia over the weekend last week for Qing Ming and I'm ashamed to say this but I was seriously dreading it. Hey if you haven't been back in more than 10 years and you probably won't recognize any of your cousins if you saw them on the streets, with the fear of being ostracized and to top it all, your mode of transport was that of a bone shaker, you tell me will you dread it not?

So anyway, woke up at like freaking 5.30am (Note: I went to bed at about 2am cause I went to watch 'The Pillowman" the previous night and I would have enjoyed it more if I weren't so bloody shagged, and no one in the right mind would wake up at freaking 5.30 in the morning on a Saturday.) and dragged my dead body to Tanjong Pagar Station to catch the supposedly 7.30am train which, was delayed so it departed at 8.40am instead and took an hour to get from Tanjong Pagar Station to Woodlands Checkpoint (considering Singapore is soooo small, an hour is... speechless) and another 6 more horrid hours before reaching Tampin Station. BUT! We're still not there yet. Cabbed for another half an hour before we finally finally finally reach my grandmother's house.

And after not being back for such a long time, it's surprising to see that nothing has changed. Although it's damn kampong, it has a coolness and familiarity to it lah..

the bath area

back area

there's actually a sun roof!

the washing area

And here's the classic.. THE WATER COMES FROM A FREAKING WELL!!!!

So there you have it. Although more ancient that what I know, this was where my dad grew up in and you probably don't get to experience these kind of stuff in Singapore.. The only thing that I hated was the size of the lizards there. They might as well be little komodo dragons. The lizards there are huge to the extent that it is seriously frightening. Thank god Singaporean lizards are not that big if not I think I'll die from the constant fear of them falling from their spots high up on that wall, and far away from me.

Aside from that, went to Mimolette with the office people, (there were like 20 of us) and had a good time laughing, playing stupid games and drinking... Takes your mind off some stuff so it's good lah.

Okie this is damn abrupt but till then~

I'm back! I hope...

2008-03-13T11:07:00.000-07:00

Went to the IT fair over the weekend cause I wanted to check up on laptop prices and lazyness got the better of me thus resulting in me going down on the last day. WRONG MOVE! Going on the last day was like going to war. Literally. I have never seen soooooo many people crammed in one place at the same time and just going up the escalator from Citylink to Suntec took ages...

Anyway, I have never been to the IT fair simply because yours truly is simply not that interested in metallic gadgets but when I went there, I have to say, apart from the crowd squeezing, it was really quite an eye opener. AND!!!

I actually got something!! Sexy new speakers which I totally heart and so does my brother.And you know what the best part is? It was damn cheap la!! Which I love even more!! HAHA I don't care if its some unknown brand or whatever cause it's cheap and its pretty. I have a thing for pretty stuff (I mean, who in the world likes ugly stuff?) so when I saw this chio thing going for the price of only $55, I HAD to get my hands on them.

Well, the laptops were also going for an obscene price of only $1200 but I didn't get it la cause like everything was sold out, and the colors available were not of my choice so yeah. I'd rather wait for a while longer when I save enough to get one in the color I like than get one on impulse and regret later on...

Work on the other hand has died down quite significantly which is good cause I can get my life back on track and go meet the rest of the world, but it seems like VS will perpetually have only 2 designers in the office, and I happen to be one of the two. Cat's on leave for like 2 weeks and so now it's just me and Yvonne.

Oh and and and!! Karen's finally going on her first flight!! OJT lah but still, so exciting!! And the lucky girl's virgin flight is to Nagoya, like how cool is that man. All the best babe~ love love =]

i close my eyes and pray

2008-03-10T13:53:00.000-07:00

For some reason, I've been reminiscing the past and reading my past entries only to remember how much I used to love working here. I really did.

It's probably because of the horribly tight datelines and sucky clients that made me so frustrated and mung zang during the past week. Well, things have started to settle down for a bit and hopefully, I can once again find the motivation to start working and start loving what I'm doing for a living...

*positive thinking*

im fustrated.

2008-02-27T00:25:00.000-08:00

This entry is purely due to my pent up frustration so forgive me while I complain for a bit.

I'm starting to be delusional once again... God knows how many times I've comforted myself with these words: 'It's only temporary.. It'll be over soon.' But once again, I'm stuck in hell. Now, I can safely say that I've been there and back, and unfortunately, I've been thrown into this abyss once again. Is it really gonna be over soon? I wonder...

Now I know how it feels to have a migraine so bad I feel squeezing my head. My brain hurts and I mean it. So much so that I feel like puking and I turn green. Now like how rare is that? I never turn green... And to make things worse, you have to put up with unreasonable datelines, bitch clients who understand fuck and all demand to have their changes done immediately, thinking that you are the free-est designer in the world with nothing to do except to wait with your finger hovering over the f5 button, refreshing your email every other minute to see what are the latest changes to make and then promptly emailing them the revised visuals half an hour later. Remind me again if that is the life of a designer?

Designer = Modern-Day Slave?

I'm tired. I'm fucking tired.

ROAR!!!!

I'm just damn frustrated that even though my fellow colleague and I are drowning, barely making it through each day, with clients breathing down our necks, the projects are still coming in. Do they not get it that we are seriously tired and short-handed? Don't give me crap like:'This one very fast one.'

I DON'T BLOODY CARE HOW RUSH OR HOW FAST IT TAKES LOR!!! I NEED TIME!!

I only have one computer, one pair of hands and one dying brain...

Even God needs a break....

A friend...

2008-02-04T15:30:00.000-08:00

I've just decided to euthanize my ancient rabbit. To end her pain when her time is not up. Am I being a good owner? Or a very bad one?

She will be missed...

ow..

2008-01-25T17:38:00.000-08:00

Attacked by my ancient rabbit I was and now, three days later, there's still a dull ache in my finger and it still bleeds occasionally. Will I get rabies and die? I wonder...

I'm starting to be cynical.. Must be the constant long working hours and little sleep. Oh btw, went to watch 27 dresses yesterday with Cat and it wasn't as good as we expected it to be. Maybe we were just too stoned to enjoy the movie, cause we seriously had to take a break and believe it or not after the movie, we actually went back to work... The life of a designer.. I spend my life making changes. SERIOUSLY.

unlock the mystery of... guys

2008-01-25T00:45:00.000-08:00

A little humour added to my otherwise brain sucking designing days...

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We always hear 'the rules' from the female side. Now here are the Rules from the male side.
There are our rules:-

Please note.... these are all numbered '1' ON PURPOSE!

1. Breasts are for looking at and that is why we do it. Don't try to change that.

1. Learn to work the toilet seat. You're a big girl. If its up, put it down. We need it up, you need it down. You don't hear us complaining about you leaving it down.

1. Saturday = Sports. Its like the full moon or the changing of the tides. Let it be.

1. Shopping is NOT a sport. and no, we are never going to think of it that way.

1. Crying is blackmail.

1. Ask for what you want. Let us be clear on this one: subtle hints do not work! strong hints do not work! obvious hints do not work! Just say it!

1. Yes and No are perfectly acceptable answers to almost every question.

1. come to us with a problem only if you want help solving it. That's what we do. Sympathy is what your girlfriends are for.

1. A headache that lasts for 17 months is a problem.See a doctor.

1. Anything we said 6 months ago is inadmissible in an argument. In fact, all comments become null and void after 7 days.

1. If you think you are fat, you probably are. Don't ask us.

1. if something we said can be interpreted two ways, and one of the ways makes you sad or angry, we meant the other one.

1. you can either ask us to do something or tell us how you want it done. Not both. If you already know best how to do it, just do it yourself.

1. whenever possible, please say whatever you have to say during commercials.

1. Christopher Columbus did not need directions and neither do we.

1. ALL men see in only 16 colours, like Windows default settings. Peach, for example, is a fruit, not a colour. Pumpkin is also a fruit.We have no idea what Mauve is.

1. If it itches, it will be scratched. We do that.

1. if we ask what is wrong and you say 'nothing', we will act like nothings wrong. We know you are lying, but it is just not worth the hassle.

1. If you ask a question you don't want an answer to, expect an answer you don't want to hear.

1. When we have to go somewhere, absolutely anything you wear is find. Really.

1. Don't ask us what we are thinking about unless you are prepared to discuss such topics and Sex, Sport, or Cars.

1. You have enough clothes.

1. You have too many shoes.

1. I am in shape. Round is a shape.

1. Thank you for reading this; Yes, I know, I have to sleep on the couch tonight, but did you know men really don't mind that, its like camping.

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So now we know what's really running through those little brains of theirs... haha

gone with the wind

2007-12-31T22:00:00.000-08:00

And with that, she left.

Well, we wish her all the best and her presence will definately be missed by all those here at VS. All the best and stay strong, my personal Can Opener...

...

2007-12-05T15:22:00.000-08:00

My world is changing, I'm re-arranging. Work hasn't been so smooth moving these few days. Expensive blunders which make your heart bleed, both from the cost and the number of people involved whom you have absolutely no intention of dragging down, no motivation and drive to come up with anything good, emotional friends...

Hopefully this is a passing phase.

I miss those at Lapland.

finland getaway

2007-11-27T10:11:00.000-08:00

And so they left. My mum and brother, that is. Left to where you may ask? Well, they left for Finland. FREAKING FINLAND!!! They went to freeze their arses off in one of the most amazing countries in the world and I'm stuck here in sunny singapore working my arse off. Dots. Well for their sake, I hope they manage to catch the Northern Lights at least just once so they can come back and tell me all about it. Spam pictures like I told you to huh dude?

To get an idea of what Finland looks like (to me Finland reminds me of the North Pole with nothing in sight except snow) I did research and god knows what I'm missing out on..

Lapland, which sooo happens to be part of their itenary

Coolest part: Dog Sledding!! Love love~

So boys and girls, Finland is a gorgous place to go to and the best part is that you get closer to seeing Santa Clause!

*Jealous

my sad life

2007-11-01T09:53:00.000-07:00

I spend my current life making changes. Seriously. I can safely say my friend that that is the life of ALL designers. To make that easier to understand, my fellow designer colleague who was bored and irritated from doing all that changes came up with:

A designer watch

and that was how I spent my last 3-4 weeks... Sad.

LOL

2007-10-19T11:48:00.000-07:00

After doing tonnes of signages for different purposes (it's part of the job), none of them can beat this. Target spotted in AJC.

Apparently in AJ, their washrooms double up as a sex change operating room. And you know what the best part is? It's reversible too!! HAHA

It's probably little humourous things like these which keep my brother going since he's always complaining about how pathatic AJ is...

halloween lizard

2007-10-17T10:18:00.000-07:00

I don't know why but I can't seem to get work done. Anything done in fact. No mood to work, no mood to nothing, even when I'm sitting in front of the television, nothing's really going in, shit man.. This is bad. How the hell am I supposed to get any work done if I'm this restless? Forgive me while I sit and wallow in self depression for a minute.

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I need a break. Work has been relatively okie, excluding the stupid 'Dragon' or as I see it, more of a lizard; irritating and pesky, I seriously think he has nothing better to do than to sit in front of his computer with his finger hovering over the F5 button, waiting for the changes to be done to his stupid backdrop. It gets increasingly irritating when one minute he wants the pumpkins with the faces and the next he wants them without the faces, only to realise that jack-o-lanterns without faces totally defeats the purpose and proceeds to asks for their stupid faces to be put back in the next email..

U THINK I SO FREE AR!?!?! ANGRY!

Argh.. It's early in the morning and I shall not attempt to spoil my day being pissed at some stupid lizard. Hopefully I can start concentrating cause doing work slowly is not exactly a good thing when projects are endless....

p.s: Cat's finally coming back from Japan! Can't wait to hear all about her trip~

LET THE WAR BEGIN!!!

2007-09-23T21:30:00.000-07:00

Alright, it's time to revive this space of rants. The past few weeks have been.. Projects, projects, projects, hardly any sleep, staying late in the office to get work done cause the computer at home is soooo damn laggy and finally..

IT IS ALL OVER!!!

For now, that is. Tired as I may be, I somehow found the strength to agree to go into Malaysia to have a game of Paintball. Seriously. I thought I was gonna die from exhaustion but from the looks of it, yours truly is not as weak as I seem.. Anyway, dragged my body out of bed after getting a wake up call from my boss aka chauffeur, Anson who promptly yelled in the phone loud enough for the whole world to hear and then proceeded to give me another 10 miss calls for me to hurry up cause he reached early.. Dots..

And so we met up with the other people and all went in together. Three cars, 10 adults and 2 kids. Going in was pretty tense cause the stupid guys had to stop twice to go godknowswhere for godknowswhatreason and leave us girls (there were only 3 of us girls, all in the same car) in the car which left us all pretty nervous cause we were scaring each other with the rape/murder/robbery/rape/MURDER&RAPE stories from the news and even though we locked the door, we were still pretty much on high alert mode just to be sure..

Half an hour later and we were finally there, with the guys being extremely hyper that they were promptly going to war armed with guns that shot paint pellets at 120km/h or smthg and apparently, they brought along their army outfits lah. (Namely, their number 4 and combat boots.) COMBAT BOOTS LEH!!! NO JOKE LAH!! 5 retarded boys (I refuse to call them men/guys cause the moment they saw those pellet releasing contraptions, they turned into kids) and 2 babes dressed in jeans and t-shirts. Then the war began!

4 hours and dunno-how-many pellets later, we were all shagged and gross and sticky and painty and tired and injured and bruised but it was good fun. I mean, how rare is it that you actually get to shoot at your bosses with guns and they will not sack you cause of the hurt or whatever and if they really do confront you, you can always say that it was a natural reflex action to shoot at the enemy or that technically, you didn't cause the damage, it was the pellet that caused that big ugly bruise. Haha

the consequence of playing in war games
taken less than 12 hours later.

Lunch was at this extremely stuffy coffeeshop but the food was pretty decent. Think I would have enjoyed it much more if it wasn't that hot. I was seriously melting lah... Then I dunno how it started off but we went to White Sands for a massage. Not all of us lah.. just the few of us that were in Anson's car and then it was finally home sweet home. Sunday/today, met Cat and Karen at Tampines cause we were going for a SOKA concert thing which Cat invited us to.. It was pretty okie and I was seriously suprised at the turnout.. I mean, I thought it was just a small affair but turns out, the response was soooo good that we had to sit outside the hall lah.. Not that I minded lah.. least can get to look see look see and experience what Cat was telling us all about so yeah.. It wasn't that bad lah. And now, I can finally sit and rot and do nothing that actually requires much thinking cause I have been using too much of my brain power these past few days.

Wow, now that is a pretty long post since a long long time... and I have to find that song that da jie wants..

Back to rotting~

you've got mail~

2007-09-04T11:16:00.000-07:00

Whoa! Direct mailer for christmas.. That's the new project that I have been given... It sounds pretty cool but when I just heard I would be the one doing the direct mailer, I had my doubts. Am I really up for it? Do I have the creativity to come up with something original yet impactful?

I'm still damn new to it all but I think I'm up for the challenge... Wish me luck!!

true reality

2007-08-24T09:47:00.000-07:00

It's the survival of the fittest. Those who are not up for the challange will be voted out..

That is the lesson I learnt this week...

small girl, big realisation

2007-08-21T12:30:00.000-07:00

Was surfing around for some inspiration for our company's website when I stumbled across this site.. I absolutely love the illustrations~ Reminds me of Miyazaki for some funny reason.

Then link link link and I came across this guy, Peter Callesen who is not human. Look at his works, the details and you'd get what I mean... I almost cried lah!

Seriously.. As in, how is it that his works are so delicate and so detailed? How the bloody hell does he do that?? I was seriously touched.. And all that is done with paper. PAPER! CAN YOU BELIEVE THAT!!?!?!?!? Paper that we use to write on, that we throw away nonchalently, that we sometimes use to spit into/wipe up whatever shit... and this guy... this guy does magic with them....

And now, it brings me to a whole new level of design and how many brillant people there are out there who can do magic with their hands.

Then came along a vid that I really like. The whole style, although extremely surrealistic, I dunno how to say, but.. yeah.. just watch!

'I lived on the Moon'

I'm starting to feel a little small in this world of design man... Still got a damn long way to go~ Ah well, at least it opened my eyes and made me realise that design is not all about.. all about what? Well, time to ponder over that children~

transformers: robots in disguise

2007-08-13T11:15:00.000-07:00

And so I finally got down to watching Transformers after everyone has been ranting about how good it was and I have only three words for it:

OH

MY

GOD!

OHMYGOD!!!!!!

Like how brilliant is Michael Bay? The graphics were to die for (apparently they spent 38 hours on one frame and in 1 sec, there's about 31 frames) and although there was like zero plot, they made it up with the super cool graphics and the humour.

And now I know what my guy friends mean when they expect to see almost everything transform into some little kick ass robot. Oh and did I mention that the actress is damn hot? Well, she's damn hot, and the fact that she drove backwards for Bumblebee was DAMN cool!!!

AAAAHHHHH!!!!

Don't even get me started with BumbleBee...

Okie okie, I think I'm starting to sound like some retard in love with a robot. Well, Transformers was not the only movie that I caught. Watched Rush Hour3 as well, and well, what can I say, it wasn't as funny as I thought it would be so yeah...

I guess last week was a relatively slack week and my Elvis is finlly over!! I wanna go see how my baby looks like~

argh

2007-08-01T21:14:00.000-07:00

I'm feeling snappish

Lack of sleep?

Last minute projects?

Endless waiting?

I blame it all on the lack of sleep...

eyes wide open

2007-07-20T02:23:00.000-07:00

I'm so tired and I can hear my bed calling out to me, I don't even think sticking toothpicks to force open my eyes will work, BUT I can't sleep. Not just yet...

I've done this many times, not sleeping for days straight just trying to rush out assignments, and I'm ashamed to say that I am seriously out of practice. It's not an easy feat you know? Not sleeping for days straight, trying to stay awake, to get some inspiration, to actually get work done without falling asleep on your face. This time, I have to come up with a concept and the mock for our company's website which we have been putting off until today, and to think of another design for NATAS.

I'M HUNGRY!!!

ROAR

The only thing I can think off right now are all the foods in the office, just waiting for me to gobble them up. We just stocked up out pantry/snack corner with so much food it's appalling. There's enough food to feed the entire army lah, and I'm not kidding. We spent $200 on food, drinks, snacks, ice cream and whatever rubbish you can think off, honestly speaking, I'm was quite shocked we managed to spend that much on food. I think my boss is starting to regret hiring the three of us cause sooner or later, we're gonna eat VS broke...

Whatever. I'm just ranting to keep myself awake but it doesn't seem to really work... Blah blah blah

this post has no title

2007-07-13T11:02:00.000-07:00

This week has been one hella a week. It's like all of a sudden, all the projects start coming in and everyone's like braindead by the end of the day...

It's damn tiring but for some really strange reason, I'm not really complaining. Guess it really is the enviroment that counts cause if I had to work this hard and stay this late everyday for DV9 I think I'd rather eat a lizard... Eww, nono, I take that back. I'd rather.. forget it, you probably get the drift. Yoga has also been less and less of a thing now simply cause by the time I knock off, the last lesson is loooonnnng over. So hopefully, after this week, things will start moving at a slower pace for everyone to recover before charging ahead once again. For a minute, I had a vision of the waves when I typed that.. Dunno why also. Hmmm...

I so desperately have an urge to do some decent shopping but I need to save up for my lappie if I ever wanna get one in the near future. If not, it'll only be one of the items on my Christmas list, and since stuff on my christmas list never ever belong to me, a laptop will only belong to me in text. Whatever. I don't even know what the hell I'm writing... Forgive me cause things have to take a slightly longer time to be processed in my brain this week and in case you're thinking, NO. I AM NOT SLOW! Thank you very much. =]

Oh and on a slightly different note, it is finally time for my cousin to do his part and serve the Singapore Army and sweat it out with all the fellow guys who will be going in today, Friday the 13th. Well, good luck dude and play nice with the other children! =]

Reminder to self: eat more fruits and drink more water if you don't want another pimple added on your face.

graduation ceremony

2007-07-02T17:18:00.000-07:00

My heart aches yet there's a little bubble of joy that's threatening to burst out. For one last day, today I shall be a student of NYP and when tomorrow comes, I will be a graduate from NYP. What's the difference you may ask? Well, the difference is HUGE! Well, for one, I will no longer be a student until I have decided to further my studies, which I WILL, but not anytime soon, and it will offically be the end of IM 2005. *sobs

I don't even know if I'll get the day off to go celebrate with my class and have a class gathering or I'd have to go back to work and continue working on the _____ NATAS fair. Well, other than that, work has been pretty okie and I finally got my pay! Which was a little less than what I used to get but it's okie cause the company here is waaaayyyy better than DV9, so I'm not complaining. Haha. Okie whatever.. I'm starting to blabber on once again.

Anyway, tomorrow's gonna be a good day and we're all gonna have fun! =]

vinyasa

2007-06-25T22:10:00.000-07:00

My shoulders are aching so badly I will never go for another vinyasa class again.

Okie no. I didn't say that. Cancel!!

I seriously didn't know stretching could put one in sooo much pain..

drink drank drunk

2007-06-24T22:55:00.000-07:00

Friday was a... really long day. Friday being Yvonne's last day (she's the intern here, and the apple of everyone's eye! We all love her =]), we probably spent the whole day giving her a farewell. I think no one was really in the mood to do any work as well, so lunch was at Suntec. Porridge buffet... Yeah, like how weird is that? Porridge? It's pretty unique and the food was pretty decent so that's fine. Talked and laughed and made her give her going-away speech in which she broke down after saying 5 words. Can't really blame her cause the working enviroment here is really excellent and I could tell that she really didn't want to leave. Well, hopefully after she graduates she'll come back to work...

Anyway, went to cafe del mar after work which was pretty mad in my standards since we left the office at about 8? and Karen and Uncle Chris had to go home to change, which makes it even crazier cause we reached Sentosa at around 11 plus. Cafe del mar was... nice ambience and all but the alchol is soo not meant for me. Two bottles of carlsberg and I was almost gone. Seriously. Let's see... The feeling of being high/semi-drunk is = feeling extremely sleepy, talking quite abit (according to my colleuges) and ur head swims. Literally. I mean, I was so knocked-out that I actually fell asleep on the beach, until it was time to leave. Somehow I managed to walk myself to the car, knocked out again until I was home and then I didn't even have the energy to bathe. Just managed to wash my face and fell dead asleep.

How stupid is that? I mean, when I got up, I could feel the amount of damage I was doing to my liver and I know I'm exaggerating expecially when I'm not a alchol comsuming freak, but it just felt so... argh... I don't know. Ah whatever. I'm just not meant to drink...

Yoga on Sun was fun but it was TIRING, and I'm proud to say that I am aching so much so that I couldn't even be bothered to tie my hair for work. Well, at least it's working.... Yoga I mean, so hopefully in a few months, I'd have a tonned enough body! =D

yoga

2007-06-17T12:28:00.000-07:00

I can't believe it. I seriously thought I would be more fit, eespecially since I've been making it a point to start exercising like 4 times since last week but after yesterday's yoga lesson, I am aching. Not like aching Aching, but there's like a mild ache in my shoulders. Am I too inflexible or too unfit what? I mean, an hour of yoga actually does more harm than jogging for 40 mins? Wow. Well, whatever works man, as long as I start losing all that fatty deposits on my huge arse.

Yoga was a first for me and yl who had a free trial at True Yoga, and yoga is.... I can't even come up with a word to describe it. Fun? Hot? Relaxing? Well, it was hard to relax in a room with temperatures or 41 degress, and it wasn't exactly fun wobbling and trying to gain your balance while standing on one foot with your hands stretched up high above your head with your eyes closed. Now, come to think of it, it was definately HOT and NOT FUN, but I guess when you want something long enough and you think it will do you more good than harm in the future, there's no harm going with the flow now, is there?

Yup, the two of us, yl and I have finally gotten one thing striked off our very very long list of ToDos. Isn't it exciting? We've finally gotten down to doing something for real and not just saying and not doing! I think its pretty cool! Haha. Well, membership is not exactly the cheapest thing around, but it's pretty decent. And you know what? I actually think it'll train me to be more responsible. =]

2007-06-12T12:16:00.000-07:00

Stage Elegance 的人班人马将为你呈现厂呈现古人屈原的传奇。由 Roger Poon 指导与构思的木偶剧将有令您易想不到的惊喜！在户动式的交流中，观众将会有机会赢取丰富的奖品。请视目以待！
A simple paragraph that yours truly had to translate for the Dumpling Festival at Chinatown for work and I almost died. So I roped in three other people in the translating process and I am proud that after the four of us put our heads together (okie, not so much me, but the other three did a really good job), we finally managed to translate that above paragraph from english to chinese.

ARE WE GOOD OF WHAT MAN??

My chinese has either improved, such that I managed to do that in chinese, or it has deproved till I had to rope in three other people to help in the translating process...

Of course it has improved lah!! Not easy okie... But I have to say that majority of the typing was done by Karen cause I seriously did not know how to type in chinese. I mean I DO know how to type in chinese but the way the chinese thing was done in my company was different lor. Even Karen has some problems... So yeah...

Well, least its an achievement to be proud of till I do smthg better and worth remembering.. haha

....

2007-06-11T00:50:00.000-07:00

ARGH!!

MY HEAD HURTS!!!

ROAR!!!

*Rolls on the floor and whine

Forgive me while I act childish for a while but my head seriously hurts. Migraines are NOT fun. =[

2007-06-06T00:13:00.001-07:00

My mum decided to be funny and tied my freshly washed bikini to my penguin. The result? My brother laughing non-stop whenever he looks at it.

What can I say? Dots....

Work has been pretty okie I guess, the people here are a fun bunch and since I just started work, I can't really say much cept that this is a whole new experience and I'll learn tonnes of stuff... My sister just went to Paris for her holiday and I am once again, Jealous. Jealous with a capital 'J'. How come she gets to go to all the amazing places for holiday and I don't? She's going to Paris to meet her friend, then she's flying down to London and then to Holland.

NOT FAIR!!!

I WANNA GO TOO!!

ROAR!

Ah but I'm stuck here in Singapore working for my lappie.. Well, she can come back and tell me all about it and buy me presents so its fine. =] Have a great time girl~

Whoot!

2007-05-30T08:35:00.000-07:00

I think I'm allergic to home. So much so that the moment I'm back in Singpaore, I'm feeling sick. My back aches, I feel old and I can feel a fever building. I hope this doesn't drag till Friday cause being sick on the first day of work sucks...

It's been ages since I visited Malaysia. I used to go in every three months and stuff but now, we're all busy doing our own stuff and we only get the chance to travel once a year so it's always been somewhere far. Malaysia has not been on our holiday list for a very VERY long time so since this year I can't see myself going for an end of the year holiday, we decided to go for a short trip before I start work at Visuals... Very last minute, very rushed and a very short trip but it was interesting.

Destination: Malacca
Transportation: Coach
Departure Time: 8.00 AM

So we had to drag ourselves out of bed at 6.00 AM and that was the start of a very long bus ride into the hearts? of Malaysia. This time, my mum managed to drag my cousin and grandma along so it's fun in a way I guess. Malacca is... A really laid-back city, not as fast moving as KL or JB but it's nice to go back to the kampong kind of lifestyle where the houses are no more than 2 stories high, zinc-roofed, chickens running around and at one point, there were even cows. Really reminded me of my grandmother's kampong. My dad's Malaysian and it's been AGES since we went back to his kampong or even visited my grandmother or that matter so yeah.

Our nice but leaky resort

The resort (I won't call it a hotel cause its not that classy as that of a hotel) was.. Leaky. No I'm serious. Our bathroom had a leaky ceiling so my mum requested for a room change and turns out, everywhere in that resort leaks. As long as there's an air-con vent, it leaks. I have no idea why cause it certainly didn't seem that old to me. Food wise, it was edible, not fantastic. I can safely say that I prefer the parsar malam food to the resort's food. Cheaper and yummier so definately better. =] Had some really interesting food like chicken rice balls. (I'm not kidding! The chicken rice there came in rice balls! Like how cool is that man?) And the lost and NEVER found A&W.

Chicken rice balls

Although it was a short 4 days and it wasn't the best holiday ever, it was a nice break I guess. Time spent with family is always nice. Didn't exactly go trigger happy either cause Malacca is well... Malacca.

Oh and guess what? When I was there, I was seriously thinking if I could live with this kind of lifestyle. Laidback, simple lifestyle, kampong style and you know what? I think I could! Not forever and ever but I actually learnt to appreciate the old tiled floors and the simplicity of it all and it was kinda nice. I don't know how to say it lah but like you know how some people feel bored and think that it is like a total no way for them? I actually thought it pretty cool... Ah what am I saying? It's just nice to get away from all the fast-paced action and whatnot and slow down abit to take in what's almost gone in Singapore....

Slip Sands of Time

blah

2007-05-21T20:29:00.000-07:00

I've been indulging in sinful desserts these few days I can actually feel the fats building up and gathering on my fat arse. The last being on Sunday, at this cafe/restaurant called Big O's at Wheelock Place, and the desserts there are to die for. Extremely rich in chocolate, extremely generous with the nuts and I only have one advice for all. Don't go there alone. Either go with a BIG group of friends so you can order different types of cakes/ice creams/whatever and try it all, or go with friends who don't mind growing fat with you cause seriously, eating all that alone is too much for one person alone and at least, you won't feel that guilty cause your friends are having indulging in the same sinful foods as you...

I've been rotting at home and making full use of my time to catch up on sleep and to get rid of all that dark rings and whatnot that I've accumulated since starting work at DV9 and I'll be starting work soon at Visuals. I still haven't gotten down to going to get a haircut simply cause I can't seem to find time to get my stupid hair cut. Ah, I'm just looking for a thousand and one reasons and being stupid cause I get all irritated with my hair but I don't actually do anything about it. Haha and if I really wanna go on that trip and I really wanna get that ibook, I should seriously start saving man. It's at times like these that I wish money would grow on trees..

2007-05-13T09:59:00.000-07:00

Happy Mother's Day!!

Presents!!

Firstly... Flowers, although very impractical since flowers wither and wilt, but very good to look at and they work very well. A very sweet gesture for all mothers...

Jem had this one in the bag since he got up early, went to the market to get these beautiful flowers. A BIG plus point for the very very nice packaging. Left it on the table beside her specs so it was the first thing mother dearest saw when she got up. She apparently jumped on the poor boy who went back to sleep and demanded to know details which he didn't give. Well, all I can say is: Smart move brother, since it put mother in a very very good mood.

Then off to Habourfront for lunch at this cosy little French restaurant which served really good dessert. All the dessert came in a big plate with icing sugar and a chocolate powered Eiffel Tower. I would seriously have licked the plate clean if it weren't for the venue. Very nice. =] That was probably the one time I got to try so many different desserts at one go. Sweets for my sweet~

Chocolate Éclair

Crème Brûlée And finally, the one dessert that represents... LOVE!

Tiramisu~

Our timing was a little off since we went for dessert before actually going for lunch, which was at some noodle restaurant.

Last but not least, being the very practical person that my mother is, we made her a box to put all her jewellery/earrings/whatnot in, which we have yet to give her since the puffy paint on the front has not dried yet. Oh and it was done by.... ME!!! Haha. I'm good right? =D

Okie, fine, its not that difficult to do but give me some credit lah! Wanted to paint it on since it'll be more obvious but came to the conclusion that the paint will get scrapped off so decided to use puffy paint instead. Why the Clear colour? (Wait, clear is not a colour. It's... Ah whatever) Well, it so happens that was the only colour I had and I didn't want to go get a new bottle just for this so yeah.

Above was how the three of us musketeers spent Mother's Day with our mother dearest, and so that makes her a happy mother... I hope. Haha I just realised that this whole post has alot of 'Mother' in it. Well, today is just another one of those days I realised how much I love my mum and how fortunate I really am to have such a wonderful person in my life... Love ya loads Ma! =]

2007-05-05T23:08:00.000-07:00

Okie blogger's layout today is a little screwed, I have no idea why I'm still typing... Anyway, today has been a really really.. What's the word to use? Erm, weird? Unexpected? Not usual? I dunno. Well, Saturday is usually spent sleeping in and rotting at home, not doing anything in particular but today's different. For one, I went for the SIA 60th Anniversary Charity Run/Walk at Changi! Unbelievable right? Haha, the tofu me actually went for an event like that even I, myself found it hard to believe. And it's not as if I haven't been exercising since my secondary school days okie. I've been making an effort to go swimming and jogging twice a week so when it came to the run/walk today, I didn't die. In fact, if it wasn't for my knee, I think I could have ran for a longer period of time.

Proof!

It was held at the SIA Sports Club which was really nice, and we had to run/walk 6km, starting from the sports club all the way to Expo and back. So yeah. Plenty of aunties and uncles, and surprisingly, SIA has some pretty fit people too! My mum took part in the 6km walk thing so I was supposed to go with my sister to exercise but in the end, my sister chose to pang sei us so my mum dragged my brother along instead... Haha it was fun to see how enthusiastic aunties and uncles can be lah. Oh and there was a fancy dress category where there was a team of guys who dressed up as horror movie characters which was pretty darn funny if you'd ask me cause there was the scream guy, freddy or was it nightmare on elms street? Mike Myers and some reggae guy with dreadlocks all running. Don't know if they won though.

Food there was pretty decent and you know what.. It feels really good to sweat it all out. I'm not being cheesy or whatever but today was different compared to the normal jogging around the neighbourhood. It's.. Hiyah it just feels better la. Oh and guess what? Mother's team won for the most number of years working in SIA that when the deejay announced the winner for that category, I didn't know whether to laugh or to cry. It's like saying they're all old aunties working for that long a period to win that prize lah... Dots.

Suprisingly, I'm not aching. Yet. And I'm not exactly very tired as well. Oh well, I've probably been thinking about this for a really really long time already but... I NEED A HAIRCUT! I'm kinda bored with my current hairstyle and but I probably won't do anything drastic cause I wanna see how long I can keep my hair up till until I get irritated, so..

Current addiction: Mangoes. I woke up one morning craving mangoes and coincidentally, there were a few slices in the fridge so I had mangoes for breakfast which gave me a stomach ache. I've been having these food cravings for sometime now and they seem to be the weirdest food ever. Mangoes seem pretty normal but before them was banana prata, and before that was sugarcane with lemon. Oh and now, I seem to prefer eating bread rather than rice. Will I die from the lack of vitamin B and get beri beri? Yes, I know, I have weird eating habits.

taiwan no more?

2007-05-02T11:30:00.000-07:00

And so Monday was a horrible day. Horrible start, horrible end, so horrible I was just thankful I'm leaving the company. I just started work 2 hours ago and already, I can't wait till the end of the day. Oh and yeah, I got the job at Visual Studios. It's at Eunos which is waaayyy nearer than coming to Sembawang everyday, starts later although it ends later but well, I'm not complaining cause I get to wake up one hour later, and the people there seem nice. It's an advertising firm and hopefully I'll survive, although I have been warned about the stress level there and the endless projects and stuff, it's what I wanted to do instead of doing web stuff and boring coding so yay!

But you know what? Because of this, the chances of being able to go to Taiwan in July/Aug is becoming less and less possible. My mum was asking me to sometime this month, before I start work at Visual Studios but then again, how about yl? I seriously don't think she has the cash to go and neither does she want to go so soon right? Hmmm.. Maybe sometime during December I guess.. Experience Christmas in Taiwan. I'll be something different. After all, spending Christmas in some other country other than Singapore is always nice.

What a wonderful world~

TGIF

2007-04-27T23:33:00.000-07:00

Thank god it's Friday

Thank God it's Friday

THANK GOD IT'S FRIDAY

THANK GOD IT'S FRIDAY!

THANK GOD IT'S FRIDAY!!!!!!

*relieved sigh

I've never been so glad the weekends are finally here I'm gonna sleep every bit of it off and enjoy myself cause work is.....

dv9

2007-04-25T09:14:00.000-07:00

It's only been one week and already, I'm beginning to question why I ever agreed to take on this job. It's freaking far, although the company has been around for some time, the number of people actually working in the office is scary. Besides the boss, who's usually not around, it's just me and another guy. How wonderful. And so, he's the programmer, I think and me, the designer. Which also goes to say that I have to do everything from the pre-production which includes mock ups for the clients, I also have to put it into html and upload it onto the internet.

Currently, I have more then 10 projects pending and I am almost certain that I will not be able to cope. Where is the other designer he promised? He doesn't even seem in that much of a hurry to hire another designer to help out with the workload. Why don't I make some noise? You may ask, well, firstly, I'm new and I don't think I am in any position to voice out that my boss should start looking for another designer cause, well, technically, I can still cope. I think... Wait till I'm barely breathing than only will he probably start looking. Sheesh... Well to look on the brighter side, I have another interview this Sat and this time, it's not that far. AND from the sounds of the email, it sounds pretty exciting. So... Hopefully, I get through this interview and it's good bye dv9 forever.... Haha

Oh did I mention that I am sooo not used to waking up at 7 every morning now cause I used to sleep at like what? 3, 4, 5 am and get up when its lunch time but now, although I sleep earlier, I'm still very much brain-dead and my eyelids weigh a ton... Argh. This has definitely need getting used to.

miss singapore universe

2007-04-22T22:19:00.000-07:00

IT'S SO STRANGE TO SEE YOUR SECONDARY SCHOOL FRIEND STRUTTING AROUND ON STAGE, WITH A PLASTIC SMILE PLASTERED ON HER FACE, AND ANSWERING POLITICALLY WEIRD QUESTIONS OR WHATNOT. I CAN ALMOST IMAGINE HER ENDING HER ANSWER WITH: "AND MOST IMPORTANTLY, WORLD PEACE!"

Yes. I have definitely not mistaken that face.. It's her alright. Taking part in Miss Singapore Universe. I almost died. I mean, she's a smart girl and all, so it's probably kind of a shock that she would take part in a competition like this... It's so weird I did not even watch it... I don't know how to say it but it erm.. it's just really weird lah..

Anyway, on a side note, no, I didn't make it to SIA either. Don't worry cause I'm not disappointed, just did it all in the name of fun, although being able to travel around is one BIG plus point... =]

Work has been... Let's just say that I cannot see myself staying with the company for long. I don't even know why I accepted the job? I'm already beginning to dread what's to come and I'm seriously praying hard that they will get in another web designer soon to help with the multiple projects cause from pre-production to uploading the website, if I had to do it all alone, I honestly don't know how I'd be able to cope...

Ong Bak dubbed in chinese sounds very wrong, and that was a totally random sentence. Heh heh

first day.

2007-04-18T09:55:00.000-07:00

I am offically employed, as a full-time web designer. Oh boy... I seriously did not think I was gonna work in this industry cause yours truly is not exactly the most talented, and the most interested in design and I certainly cannot see myself 10 years from now, with my kids running around me while I sit in front of the computer frantically typing away at scripts or not sleeping, rushing to meet the crazy datelines and screaming at my poor kids for pestering me while I die from brain exhaustion or brain mulfunction or whatever it is.

Anyway, I was in need of a job cause being broke sucks and they were in need of a web designer, so here I am. I should probably be thankful cause I was hired on the spot. It's only like 10am in the morning and already, I'm sleepy. Doesn't help that I now offically work in Sembawang and have to get up a full two hours earlier to get to work cause travelling time alone is to kill...

God bless me and all those who works with me...

The Last Samurai

2007-04-15T21:22:00.000-07:00

I can't remember how many times it is that I have watched The Last Samurai, and up till now, it's probably still one of my favourite shows. I love how intense Ken Watanabe's acting was, I love the gorgeous scenery, although most of it was set in New Zealand and not in Japan, love it! Makes one want to go to New Zealand to take in the gorgeous scenery, live on a farm and own some sheep. Blah...

I have been rotting at home, going out rarely cause I'm always so broke, and hopefully, tomorrow's interview will go well and I will have a job, so I can save up and go see the world. Wish me luck... =]

farewell IM 2005

2007-04-08T03:01:00.000-07:00

Well, after the IM chalet that was held last week, it suddenly feels a little too soon for us to part and go our different ways. Although I only went for the bbq, it was still nice to catch up and chat with friends I only started to get closer to during our last year together. Last semester somemore... Look on the bright side, at least the bbq's not the last time we're ever gonna see each other ever again. There's still the big huge graduation in July, where everyone will be dressed in ugly gowns and wearing equally ugly hoods. Too bad no motar board cause diploma holders don't get to wear hats... Haha and if those people start getting emotional and start reminiscing and claim that we will never ever see each other ever again, Singapore is only this big so to want to meet up is not that hard a thing to do unless all the heartless people in IM out there are heartless and don't wanna come for class gatherings. Ah I should probably not say this so soon cause what if I'm one of those heartless IM people who don't turn up? Karma...

Anyway, on a lighter note, I should probably go, want to, need to cut my hair. Well, maybe not cut CUT but rather, it feels like it could do with a bit of a trim... See how lah.

really random

2007-04-02T05:09:00.000-07:00

Happy April Fool's! Actually, I'm one day late... Anyway, just finished watching yet another Jap drama which was somewhat like GTO but yet different, and even though the ending was kinda disappointing, it's still wasn't too bad.

Went to celebrate Jem's birthday just now, (even though it's 5am in the morning and technically, it's the 2nd of April, I'm gonna take as the 1st of April so too bad..) and we went to Tony Roma's which was very rare since it's super ex to dine there. The food was brilliant as usual, the soup was delicious, the potato skins were lovely and the chicken was yummy! What can I say, it's Tony Roma's. Brilliant food which should not be eaten too often if not one will seriously die from eating too much good food, it's probably like BB's american brownie. Can only be eaten on certain occasions cause it's too good... Okie I have no idea what I am saying.

The best part was probably on the way back, I don't know what's wrong with myself but I have taken a liking to looking at the stars while walking home and guess what? If my brother did not point it out, I would probably not notice that I was looking at the milky way. I am not kidding. From my house, on my way back, it was actually possible to see the milky way and it's incredible. It really looks like a white strip across the sky and on one side, that's where all the stars are.

Okie, it sounds ridiculous but yeah, moment to remember so I'm blogging this down. I should probably go to sleep and this is a really random entry.

outdated

2007-03-28T23:14:00.000-07:00

A lot has happened these few days... Gave up on that job offer cause we didn't really like the way they did things, and we didn't really see the need for that many tests to be done, after all, we had our portfolio.... So yeah.

Went to the zoo in what seemed like forever since I ever set foot in the Singapore Zoological Gardens, which is now no longer known as the Singapore Zoological Gardens but simply the Singapore Zoo. Well, it's changed A LOT, and most of the enclosures were under renovation when we went. Oh and one more thing. One more major thing. THE PENGUINS ARE NO LONGER IN THE ZOO! They removed those little birds that fly in the water!!! I was seriously disappointed that they were gone cause I was seriously looking forward to seeing them one more time and they were gone.. sad =[

Anyway, I didn't bring my camera so the only picture I took was off this peacock when it opened its feathers for pictures to be taken. I swear that thing knew when it was at the center of attention with its magnificent tail opened, posing and everyone was snapping pictures. It's so arrogant and so pro at posing its actually scary.

Well, what can I say? It knows that it's gorgeous...

I'm job hunting now since I'm kinda desperate for money since there's tonnes of things I wanna do and tonnes of places I wanna go.

Super outdated pictures which I got recently, the Fusion pictures and other rubbishy pictures which reminds me of the crazy times that I had. Brings back memories man...

IM 2007

my darlings that made the three years of hell livable

sicken-ed

2007-03-20T08:20:00.000-07:00

One week into my post-graduation slacking week and I am sick. Well, at least I have to thank my lucky stars for not being sick during any of those major periods so I guess now, when I can afford to fall sick, I really am sick. Constantly sneezing, head throbbing, fever, aching... I hate being sick. Argh.. and it's not as if I'm not exercising lor! I have finally taken the effort to start exercising once again cause I seriously cannot stand my legs looking like orange peel in the years to come. And now, as I am typing this, I am like sweating.. guess it's due to the fever.. well, better out than in I suppose.

Got another offer as a web designer and I seriously don't know if I should take it up. First of all, I am not say particularly interested in web and second of all, they are looking for someone full time.. I can't say I want to start working soo fast and start full time. I still have yet to go on a holiday... I don't know man. Oh and right now, I'm like hooked on this new? Tank song and I have to listen to it at least 5 times a day if not I'd die. I think I'm suffering from Tanknewsong withdrawal symptoms

light shower

2007-03-14T11:11:00.000-07:00

My brother came home claiming he saw a meteor shower while walking home. Never in my life have I ever witnessed a meteor shower and would die to catch one. I would like to think that he was lying cause it's not fair that he managed to witness one so clearly and so suddenly but I have never seen one.... IT'S NOT FAIR!!! =[

And then he said something was gonna happen to him today cause he caught such a rare phenomenon accidentally and it really did. Was hungry and wanted to eat something so my mum told him to eat the brani that she bought back.

Looks pretty good huh? Well, look again.

HAH! Looks familiar don't you think? Looks mysteriously like some offspring of some beetle out there huh?

THERE WAS A FREAKING MEAL WORM IN THE RICE!

All nice and big and dead. How's that for a meal? gross...

night out

2007-03-13T17:34:00.000-07:00

I vowed never to touch the computer ever again for this whole week but guess what? That's not possible. I'm having fun rotting away and not doing anything, just slacking and growing fat, waking up late and enjoying the feeling of not waking up to the sound of a screeching alarm, not having to drag my half dead carcass out of bed but rather waking up feeling refreshed... not doing anything is excellent but then again, its kinda boring. I don't know what to do with myself now that Fusion is over. There's no assignments to rush for, no deadlines to meet, no portfolio to stress about, no school, ABSOLUTELY NOTHING! I should start exercising again. Seriously if not the next time you see me, I'll be a fat cow.

Anyway, went for a job interview yesterday which was pretty rush since I don't intend to start work immediately after I graduate, and they seem.. nice. They were looking for a web designer and I seriously don't mind doing websites and stuff but my aim is still graphics. That's what I wanna do if I eventually get to go overseas to study. I wanna do graphics. But we'll see how it goes lah. They may not even hire me... haha. After the interview, went to meet the girls to get some shopping done before meeting the guys for dinner. It was an 0412 outing and it turned out to be one of the best 0412 gatherings we ever had. Not like we had a lot of outings to begin with. But yeah, it was pretty nice to just sit around and talk and laugh about stupid stuff.

Had a tough time deciding where to go for dinner since Seoul Garden was ex and the food is not fresh.. so we just stood around at Taka and debated where was the best place to go. Decided on Esplanade, Makan Sutra so we all loaded in to yz's lorry (yea, that little guy drove his dad's lorry) and off to Esplanade it was. It's definitely not the first time I sat at the back of a lorry but yesterday's experience was... scary/fun. 12 lives in the hands of a little guy in a lorry going at not exactly the fastest pace but scary all the same. Dinner was good! Lots of food, and I'm starting to drink sugarcane with lemon. It's really not as bad as I thought it was...

Hung around Kallang, talked, chilled and rotted till around 130 then it was time to leave. Went on one of the longest car rides ever around the whole of Singapore in the middle of the night cause yz dropped everyone off. Yeah. He sent everyone of the 12 of us home which was really sweet of him and since I was the one who stayed nearest to him, I reached home at 430 close to 5. Kinda wild huh? Haha but it was fun lah. Got home half dead and by the time I bathed, and crawled into bed, it was 530... So yeah. Above is how I spent the first day of the week since I graduated.

Congratulations to me! =]

the end

2007-03-11T08:09:00.000-07:00

FUSION IS FINALLY DECLARED OVER!!!! My three day graduation show is finally over and I am still alive! I will never have to step into NYP ever again and it's kinda sad that this is all over. I mean, three years of hell, late nights, endless assignments, and no inspiration, it was all once frustrating and it drove me crazy but then again, what's school life without these man? Now, business was rather okie during fusion but the only problem is that.. I don't want to work now! I have yet to see the world, enjoy myself, and then, I wanna continue studying. That is the plan I have come up with after much discussion and contemplation, so... yeah.

Anyway, I still remember MY times during FY pretty clearly and now, it's a new batch occupying our space. Ah!! I'm reminiscing once again. It's the end of 0412, the end of IM 2005 and the end of my times in Nanyang Polytechnic. Took tonnes of pictures with everyone and had tonnes of fun during Fusion so yeah. Will post the pictures up sometime later if I'm not too embarrassed to have my own face on my blog. I'm not a person who loves to camwhore... haha =]

around the world

2007-03-06T02:11:00.000-08:00

It's like 2 in the morning, I have to go back to school later to prepare for Fusion and here I am, sitting in front of the com, not doing anything in particular and drinking apple juice. WHY AM I NOT SLEEPING!?!?!?!!

Now that's a good question. WHY? Hmm.. I have no idea. I'm tired but I don't feel like sleeping and I'm broke. I just spent $60++ on printing alone and I had to dig into my ang pao money for that money cause I have a grand total of $4 in my bank account. I seriously should start working once this is all over and then I can go see the world. That will be on my list of 'To Dos' starting now. To see the world and to experience their culture, absorb the gorgeous scenery mother nature has given the world and before the world ends, go to the north pole and see the northern lights.

That sounds relatively ridiculous and totally unachievable unless I strike 4D and win a million bucks. But then again, I don't buy 4D... I'm starting to dream once again and I should probably hit the sack.

fusion

2007-03-02T23:15:00.001-08:00

AH!!!! Fusion is coming!! And I am sooo not prepared... My brother said that time was passing incredibly slow today and I told him that this is the one time that I am glad time is crawling by. For once in my life, I do not want to graduate cause its fusion. I mean.. IT'S FUSION!! How big a deal is that man?? After that, I probably will be left dangling there, and my path of life is still in the shadows so what the hell am I supposed to do? I don't even know if I wanna go straight to the U or to go overseas or to start working or to take a big break or what? What the hell am I supposed to do? I should probably start thinking about my future but what can I say? I am not a planner, and at this point in time, this is not good news. My future seems bleak. Someone should tell me what to do. They should come up with a new syllabus that teaches you how to plan your future. I hate not knowing what to do. It drives me crazy. Honestly, I have no vision of how my life will be once Fusion is over, and I kinda hate that feeling.. Oh my god. I am going insane.. =[

The hardest thing about growing up is growing up itself.

umizaru

2007-02-25T21:48:00.000-08:00

Awwww... My back freaking hurts lah... I have absolutely no idea as to how I managed to hurt it or what the hell it was I did. Maybe I did some vigorous arm exercises in the middle of the night and so now I'm aching.. But then again, not my whole back aches leh, it's just the left side. Argh! =[

Anyway, with the fusion date drawing near and me having yet to complete my portfolio, I have been doing some serious slacking. Went to rent some movies with YL and now, all I have been doing is watching those movies... A very very bad distraction indeed. So anyways, one of the movies that I really really liked: Umizaru. I happened to watched the second movie on the plane when I was flying to New York and god knows how much I cried while watching that movie. Sadded sia, so I had to rent the first movie. Loe and behold! The first movie is really nice too! I think there's a drama on that movie or smthg but whatever.. I like the two movies! =D Takes my mind off some stuff for a while and it's relatively refreshing.

gong hei fat choi!

2007-02-21T14:35:00.000-08:00

Hey blogger changed its layout and stuff I got lost trying to get into my account.

I am like seriously lagging. Havent been blogging lately and alot of stuff happened, I mean, it's CNY! Of course alot of things has to happen if not it wouldn't be CNY anymore. Well, first things first, GONG HEI FAT CHOI!!! Must be special abit cause everyone is saying that in chinese or english so I shall say it in canto. Haha

the cousins

CNY was.. well, quite a few people from in the family were missing. Daniel suay suay got high fever on the first day, Nora's in Canada; missing home and even though only two of them were MIA-ing it felt different. But nonetheless, new year is a time for reunion and MASSIVE family gatherings and I should probably say this cause it just hit me this year that I love my family. Nono I know everyone loves their family but does it include extended family? In all seriousness. I hear from alot of my friends that they are not very close to their cousins, aunties, uncles and when it comes to times like these, it just means that it is time once again for parents to start comparing kids, start to do I dunno what else and if they did have a choice and if it wasn't just for the plain reason that it was the new year and it was a time to start collecting money, they would rather be somewhere else than stoning in front of the tv or whatnot.

In my case, I'm probably really really fortunate that my whole family is not like that. It's a close tight circle and everyone is nice to everyone, not so much comparing (I won't say no comparing cause there's bound to be some sort of stuff like that always around) it doesn't matter whose house we're in, everyone helps out, and everyone can talk to everyone and laugh out loud without feeling that we're just making conversation or entertaining people. I love it! And it's really nice to feel that way. I mean, I've always known it all along that my family was a close one but it just really hit me this year that like: Wow! This is great and I love it! Like my bro was saying he has a friend whose aunties and uncles are like ours, very successful people, doctors, lawyers and because they are so successful, they become snobbish and stuff but that's different from our family cause even though our aunties and uncles are like so pro, they are still super nice and like when it comes to family, they can be equally crazy. How rare is it that you are served drinks by a lawyer? Haha. Maybe I'm just becoming sentimental or smthg but yeah. This new year was like great realization for me.

Oh and the kids seem to grow SUPER fast lah! I mean, one year ago you were just like this tofu thing, and now, one year later when I see you, you are walking!!! Does it matter that the kids always seem to multiply in numbers so fast you feel old? But they are just sooo adorable you can't help but croon at their little fingers, aawww at their confused faces as they are being passed from one adult to another or the little actions that they do like lean into you like a little koala and grab ur finger to suck that drives you crazy and makes you think that you wanna get married just to have a kid, or even better, kidnap that one cute kid? That's how we all feel. That's how I feel.

Well, this is just my mum's side, I can't say the same for my dad's side cause they are all in Malaysia and I haven't been back in like what? Almost 10 years? So anyway, apart from the great family realization, new year was pretty much the same except that this year, I have to include two more jabronies. My two new step-cousins, whom none of the cousins like. Arrogant, egoistical, non-stop bragging, Oh-I-am-so-great-hear-me-talk cousins. Ah whatever. So from now on, I'm gonna start to like all these family gatherings and try to be more sociable. Haha.

Okie enough of family talk. Back to work, back to portfolio that seems to talk over my life, back to stressing over what to do. When is it ever gonna be over? *sob =[

kurosagi~

2007-02-14T21:41:00.000-08:00

Love is in the air~

Yes it's Valentine's Day and after being in town for the past few days and seeing couples everywhere, love is indeed in the air. For some really strange reason, I've seen quite a number of couples who were presented flowers but for some funny reason, the guy is the one carrying flowers instead of the girl... now why is that so? Hmmm..

Anyway, I have indeed fallen in love... in love with Kurosagi.

Black Swindler swindles White swindler to get the money back for his victims. Confused? Yeap. So was I but after watching it, I lurrrve it!!! Okie okie it's the main lead that makes the show even more lovable, with his dead pan voice and his trademark 'bang', eye candy plus cool plot.. I like! =]

Heh heh.. right I should stop gushing over him and continue watching the show.

dark death

2007-02-07T01:58:00.000-08:00

As we entered the half-closed gates to the church, groups of guests dressed in black, carrying on hushed conversations could be seen. Closer we walked, the heavy atmosphere made my heart beat faster and I crept closer to my friend. No one came to welcome us. We were pretty much left there, not knowing what to do, not knowing where to go. Not that I was expecting any form of invitation whatsoever, so we made our way over to the only lit room that was englufed by the surrounding darkness. Standing in the doorway, looking at the picture in between the candles on the table, the air was filled with the sweet scent of crysenthemum that lined the two walls and the air was filled with the prayers coming from a radio. And as if it were contagious, the heaviness atmosphere filled our hearts all too suddenly. I wanted to cry. For what? I do not know. The sight of it all was disheartening, and all I could do was to offer my prayers and deepest symphathy through a tight hug. I didn't know what to say, in fear of seeing her tears...

I did not know the decesed directly. But I knew who he would leave behind and it was nice to see how close ij family is. One tragic event that resulted in everyone coming together one way or another. Stay strong... Mrs Low.

inspiration.. not

2007-02-01T12:15:00.000-08:00

I'm freezing my arse off at home with no fan turned on, majority of the windows closed except for one window in the hall and the wind coming through that window is so freaking strong for a moment, I forgot I was in Singapore. My hands are like ice lah. It's the freak weather the world is experiencing. Maybe it's a sign that the world is ending. Haha

Busy as I am, somehow, I manage to find the time to blog. It's strange cause threre's tonnes of work to be done but considering the rate at how I'm progressing, I probably won't be finishing anytime in the next 10 years. If anyone ever tells you how slack Year 3 is? Don't believe them. Just portfolio alone is enough to suck ur braincells dry, not to mention time and energy and sleep wasted when you have no inspiration. That's just one module. Next week, there's the art history test which I'm pretty sure I'll fail, the art history journal, broadcast AND portfolio. All due next week.

I'm screwed. We're screwed, and unless you are one of those angelic students who have started working on your portfolio when the teachers started telling you to one year ago and probably have about 20 works to your name, then welcome to the family. Join the crowd. We're all on the same ship and that ship is sinking. I hate Fusion! Crappy picture, pathatic amount of works, no inspiration. That is one lethal combination man. Oh and did I mention that I have taken a sudden liking to the Goong soundtrack? God knows why but yeah. It's like on repeat mode in my itunes and I think it's driving people crazy. =]

I just realised that its the 1st of Feb today! Chinese New Year is two weeks away! Money! Money! MONEY!

L-O-V-E is in the air~

2007-01-28T02:22:00.000-08:00

Curtoesy of my brother, I just realised that AJ boys really cannot make it (I'm saying this based on what he said so I'm not sterotyping. )

We were talking about relationships and then he went on to say how his friends' taste's are all pretty weird.. take for example, his friend had a crush on a girl who eats butter. Yes, you saw right. BUTTER, that fat/oil filled piece of yellow crap. Now now, everyone eats butter you say, but I'm pretty sure no one eats butter straight from the packet like how u eat chocolates now, is there? And so I went to AJC's open house for the simple purpose to take a look at butter-eating girl, and guess what? She's not as ugly as you'd expect her to be lah, in all honesty. She'd look pretty decent if she lost all that weight (surely you didn't expect her to be all slim and pretty right? Cause if she still managed to look that way after all that fat consumption I'd slit my wrists).

So yeah. After a long time, his friend finally woke up from his nightmare and got over butter-eating crush and just before my brother could congratulate him on his achievement, he moved on to another girl. A girl with normal eating habits but whose looks have pretty much fallen low. That's the sad life of AJ's boys. Just as I was about to put the verdict on how sad that guy is, my brother went on to say that he had another friend who likes this other girl, and guess what? He asked other friend to help write the girl a...................

LOVE LETTER!!!! (At this point in time, when I brother said that, I almost died from a bout of hysterical fits.) A LOVE LETTER?!?!?! For the love of god, what era is he from man? At least a love email or smthg lah.... Love letter... And somemore have to ask friend help him write... talk about sincerity man.

I half expect him to pass it to her using his loyal friend The Pigeon or probably using the ancient methods of smoke signals lah! Oh and he signed off as: your secret admirer. Is it just me or is that guy one sad case? I suddenly had a vision of myself dying an old maid if Singaporean guys are of that standard. I mean, its so..... ahem. You get the drift. If girls want suprises and different ways of expressing love, this is the guy to beat man. He's so original no one will think of it. It's so suprising it's funny.

Okie okie, I shouldn't be mean and laugh at the poor git. There's nothing wrong with liking somo one and there are many ways of expressing your love but then again, that's a number one man. Haha. So I'm probably thankful that my brother's tastes have not fallen low to that of his friends and hopefully, he will go get a girlfriend and not shock my poor mother into thinking that her only son is indeed gay. Right Jem? =]

hokkaido hotpot!

2007-01-21T19:28:00.000-08:00

I am like sooo stressed out over portfolio and fusion and whether I actually have enough works to be put up and the website and the stupid RIA assignment which I have absolutely no clue as to how the hell I'm supposed to do it I think I am going crazy. So much so that besides all that worrying, I have been doing nothing over the past two days except for sleeping and watching tv and doing the bare minimal of research. Am I screwed or am I screwed?

That aside, went to celebrate mother dearest's birthday on Thursday and we went to this Hokkaido Hotpot place at Paradiz Center. It's probably not a place that you will normally go to and will probably just walk past it without offering as much of a glance, but well well well, that place is really nice! Nice ambience, nice staff, really REALLY nice food and the only bad thing I can think about right now is that they should seriously change the music. I mean, hearing the same two tracks on repeat mode is seriously.... argh. You know what I mean.

And so, anyway, went there, got two set meals and all I can say is that thank god we ordered two sets. If we were to each order a set each, we would not have been able to get out of there alive. The portions there are in two extremes. Very small and cute or VERY VERY BIG.

That's where they put all the different sauces: peanut sauce, some sweet chilli sauce and the normal soy sauce.

Starters: some 3/4 cooked egg thing that had the yolk runny but the white all cooked. Very yummy. And it came in this cool looking plate thing and we didn't know how to eat it so the waiteress had to teach us how to eat it lah! Kimchi + eggy thing = very nice.

Oh and you know how usual hotpot places you have this one big hole where you cook all the food in? At this place, you get ur own little pot to cook, and so the food came, and it seemed like it never stopped coming. Presentation of food there is also really cute. As in, the seafood came in this boat with ice and stuff so it's something different. Mountains of beef and pork which I didn't touch, some plate with the different dumplings that they serve over there, and besides that, you get to choose what kinda main dish you want. We got the rice, vermilice and some noodle thing. For that price, it really is ALOT ALOT of food.

Then came dessert which was really really good as well. Pearl Harbour was some mango sago thing which I absolutely lurve, some yam thing that my mum ate and coffee ice cream which was not too strong. I like! Oh oh.. and this:

is one of the drinks that I really liked as well. Ice plum juice, which came in a really small glass but nevertheless, really nice and sour... the tea they serve there is not the normal green tea but rather some berry tea. Smelled like blackcurrent tea if you ask me.

All in all, that place is a really really good place if you're looking for good food so yay!

argh

2007-01-14T13:38:00.000-08:00

I'm like getting irritated very easily these days. Let's just say that a certain individual has been getting on my nerves and just at I'm about to get over what that person said, that person has to come up with another clever comment to get me all started and irritated. I think it's probably just me. Maybe I'm suffering from post-school depression, so much so that I get irritated with almost everything that that person says. It's just that person who has the power to let me feel that way and I should probably not bother about anything that person says but AAAAHHHH!!! Sometimes I just wanna scream in ____'s face! Just do us all a favour and SHADDAP! Or should I just say do me a favour and SHUDDAP! Just get out of my face! Interprete it anyway you want. I'm not saying whether she's a he or he's a she so yeah. Just wanted to let off some steam here cause I don't know what's gotten into me that I get soooooo pissed off. Am I just being too sensitive? Or am I just being stupid?

warning.....

2007-01-09T23:11:00.000-08:00

After receiving two warning letters and a hysterical mother who demanded to know where I was and how I managed to skipped lessons, I hereby declare that I will be a good girl and try to attend ALL lessons and hopefully not feel like skipping any more lessons until I graduate. (note the words TRY TO.)

So dots lor. Skip only three lessons and you will get a warning letter. Not just by the school email that you will delete without as much as a glance, and without your parents ever knowing, but now, they have resorted to sending the letter to your home as well.

I mean, I was seriously shocked but probably not as shocked as my mum when she recieved the letter cause she thought I was some deliquent or something, going out but not attending lessons. She demanded to know where I was in detail and what I was doing and when I told her I didn't go for lesson because I just didn't feel like going or when I told her I was at home trying to finish last minute assignments, she had that 'I don't believe you look.' sheesh so all you people out there who are thinking of skipping lessons and don't think a big deal out of that warning letter, THINK AGAIN! don't say I never warn you. If it drives my mum crazy, it should do the same to your mum too.. =]

Blah

2007-01-03T20:10:00.000-08:00

What a long weekend! New Year holiday, Hari Raya holiday, and today, I didn't even have jap cause of dunno what reason. Think it was some e-learning week or something. And so tmr is the BIG presentation and hopefully I don't screw up. Steffie Saggie had better help me.

Just to end off with something dreamy, cause I havent been in the best of moods these few days:

For as long as I can remember, I have dreamed that I was flying high above the trees rivers and houses and people.
My imgination soars.
The sky is limitless.
As a child, every painting, sculpture, and piece of art I saw in a museum or book was a feather added to my wings.
Every picture I drew, a feather.
Every hug from my parents and grandparents, another feather.
Every laugh with my brothers and friends, more feathers.
Every snuggle with my dog, feathers.
Everytime I played ball.
Feathers, feathers, feathers.
Now I am older, and I have many feathers in my wings, a number of them from looking and creating art.
In my work, as in my life, the challenge is always there
to soar ever higher, to never stop flying.

2007

2006-12-31T23:26:00.000-08:00

Alrighty. It's almost the end of yet another year. It comes and goes, and before you know it, its over. Well, 2006 has been one hella a year. Stuff happened, both the good and the bad and hopefully when I look back next time, I'll remember all that has happened since I have the memory like that of a goldfish. Anyway, I'm still pretty much suffering from jet-lag, considering sleeping at 7am and waking up at 4pm the next day does not really help cause school's gonna reopen. Shit. Talking about school, I'm dreading it. Graduating in three months. Can you believe it? THREE MONTHS!!!!! I think I'm gonna die.

And here I am sitting at home, watching the 2007 countdown thing and how desperately the hosts are trying to get the crowd going. Its painful. Oh well, Happy New Year darlings! =]

The big apple

2006-12-28T23:23:00.000-08:00

Went

To...

New York!

Haha. I just had to do that. It's probably been 10 years since we last went to America and my mum wanted to go somewhere far. So anyway, left for the US on the 12 Dec, which was a Tuesday (yeah, I skipped school) and spent the next 24 hours in an aeroplane seat which caused my arse to cramp up and my knees to hurt from all that sitting. There was a transit at Frankfurt (Germany), but that didn't really help cause the Germany airport is boring and ugly. Not like NYC's airport is any better. New York's like this bustling, up-beat city and you'd naturally think that the airport is like Singapore's Changi Airport but now, when they say Changi Airport is world-class, I will not doubt it. Seriously. New York's airport is so old and boring and dull and grey its suprising. But whatever.

I probably never flew that much on a trip before.

The itinery goes like this: Singapore to Frankfurt, Frankfurt to New York. New York to Buffalo. Stayed over in Buffalo for 2 days, then Buffalo to Boston, Boston to Orlando (Florida). Stayed in Orlando for about a week and then flew back down to New York. Stayed for another 2 days in NYC and then the long, tiring flight back to Frankfurt and finally, Singapore. phew, now I did not expect that to take up three lines. So yeah. You probably get the drift.

I loved Buffalo. That's where we went to see the Nigara Falls and then walked over to Canada. Yup. Walked over. It's actually not as far as you think cause America is connected to Canada with a bridge called the Rainbow bridge and guess what? It really is possible to see a rainbow in the waterfall. Beautiful! See for yourself! Love it! =]

Okie. Then we went to this Hershey I dunno what you call it. It's like a HUGE chocolate shop/factory and it was absolutely sinful just being in that shop. Mum bought like tonnes of chocolate and I almost went crazy. Over the different types of Hershey chocs, over the prices and blah blah blah. That is also where I saw the HUGEST bar of chocolate ever!

Doesn't look that big does it?

Now what do you think? It weighs a freaking 2 pounds lah! A Freaking ONE KILOGRAM!

Oh and guess what? Just when I thought Singapore was the only country to sell some of the ugliest pairs shoes called Crocs, loe and behold! America has them too! And it costs waaaaaayyyyy more than those cheapo S$3 a pair in Singapore.

Oh oh oh. I saw the nothern lights! Cool right?

Not. Its just some really badly taken picture. haha

Okie, flew down to Orlando and met up with my mother's friend and stayed at the Summer Bay resort which is very super nice and comfy and then yup! Went to DisneyLand. There, the DisneyLand is kinda like split into 4 different theme parks. MGM, Magic Kingdom, Epcot and Animal Kingdom. Boy is Disney RICH! Four different Theme Parks with totally different concepts and blah blah blah. It's really nice to get in touch with your kid side, the achitecture, the different shows, songs, rides blah blah blah. Universal Studios was the best! Screaming like a banshee, riding rides I never thought I would ride, feeling the adreneline rush... whoot! Oh and did I mention that the people there are really nice too? Well at least they are compared to those in NYC.

New York is... grey, rude, ugly, dirty, grey, and more grey. I have never seen sooo much grey in my life and I felt like I was living in some monochromatic city. Of course the Empire State Building and the Statue of Liberty was a must see but other than that, New York is boring. Shopping was not that great cause everything was so expensive and cause its Christmas, everywhere is packed. The lights were nice but other than that, nothing. Bleah. =[ Kinda disappointing cause my sister's friend said that Manhattan had good shopping. It's exactly like what you see in the movies.

Went to the WTC site, where it all happened 4? years ago and now, all that there is left is nothing but debris.

Oh but one thing I absolutely love is the tv programmes. American television programmes are sooo crappy but so fun. I mean, its seriously addictive lah. Like there was this talkshow I was watching on this psychiatrist and there was this family on the show. The son had like a serious problem cause he was like addicted to death and his parents were afraid he would become a serial killer and then they went on the show for help. And so there they were on the show and then all of a sudden, the son starts arguing with the parents and then they start screaming at each other and the doctor is like sitting there absolutely doing nothing and I don't know why but I was like sitting there watching the whole drama unfold. So weird.

So yeah. I'm getting lazy so that's about it. I'm still kinda jet-lagged but wth. Mixed feelings about the trip. The big apple was disappointing but Orlando was lovely. It's like Singapore only cooler. I just realised that I 'm like spamming pictures but who cares man? Let the pictures do the talking...

2006-12-27T09:21:00.000-08:00

I'M BACK!!

Miss me?

haha. Merry Christmas

and i'll update later for all you kaypohs out there.. =]

bye

2006-12-12T20:06:00.000-08:00

I'm leaving

I'll be back

Don't miss me

and..

MERRY CHRISTMAS darlings!

I hate fusion. =[

2006-12-01T12:12:00.000-08:00

Yahoo! It's the first day of the last month of the year! Okie a little bit anti climax and I am not as cheerful and happy as I sound.

The fusion pictures are out and it was okie. I mean there are probably worst pictures out there of myself and I should probably stick to the "I'm not photogenic" phrase. I'm not disappointed, I am perfectly fine.......AH! Who am I kidding!??! Of course I am Disappointed. That's disappointed with a capital D. I hate it! I look like some sick person with no eyebrows and a face that has not seen soap ever since it was invented! My face looks so shiny it looks oily!!!!! It bloody looks like a qua li lah! Fuck lah! Oh and did I mention that "My face is sooooo fat" phrase? Let me say it now. My face is so fat in that photograph it absolutely does NO justice. I said NO justice you hear? No justice to all the students out there. Who's complaining? Let me hear you? Oh and don't even let me get started with the background.

I'm starting to hate Fusion already. Isn't that great? We get to wear ugly blue graduation gowns, with an even uglier red and yellow hood which mistakingly looks like a bib, look horribly pale and fat and oily faced for all to laugh at and be placed beside our nice, alot-of-effort work. Let my works take all the attention from me lah! It's not that bad, at least I'd rather people remember me by: "Hey did you see that piece of work? So funky right?" rather than "Hey did you see that picture of the girl? So ...... right?" Remind me why I don't wanna graduate? And there Miss Lee was threatening us with the: "If you don't take the NAFA test you cannot graduate" thing. No need to scare us like that lah. Just show us a sample of some ugly Fusion photograph and we will all go for the Nafa test.

Alright. I should stop bitching. Just blame it on poor lighting, poor luck and poor fellow suffers who hate ur fusion pictures just as much as I do. =[